i vented,

i drank and burned my organs
i blasted my speakers and thumped my eardrums
i lifted weights and sored my muscles
i jumped jacks till everywhere hurt
i punched; kicked the wall, vibrating it, causing a low frequency boom
i punched myself in the mirror, imagining i was my enemy

i didn't get drunk
i didn't go deaf
i'm still mobile
i still walk
i'm brusied but what the hell
i'm angry with something

at the end of it all, nothing changes.
for i know tomorrow it will happen again
and the day after
and the day after
and the day after.
its the life i'm born into
a family of pieces
with lack of self-confidence
with lack of appreciation
with the want of everything more.

screw life.

Labels: i'll post something nicer after this.

here's a sadistic poem i just thought about since i was in such an emo mode just now. its short, but very strong, if you can relate to it that is.

Within these four walls,
a wet blanket dries one too many times.

yup thats it.

anyway, school was pretty simple today, but i had a fun time with cheryl at vivo! (: i managed to cheer her up! yay! (: and i did it within the first few minutes of us meeting up! (: so happy with my success today :D we patronized a few shops today and i got her a book from pageone, and i'm planning to get one soon as well i think. After which we went to tangs, cos she wanted to know so very badly what i wanted to get her for valentine's. SADLY, i didnt have enough money as apparently the Guess watch costed a hundred more! now i have to think of another present and i may already have something i'm thinking of already :D okay lar, i know i promised you a long post today baby, but i feel so lazy today! tomorrow okay? haha. you know ar, funny thing is, i felt a bit saddened by my life( read the title of this post) before i typed this paragraph about my dearest cheryl. But now that i've typed it, i feel so good! (: must be because of the happy time we had together just now! (: thank you dear! (whether you know it or not) for cheering me up as well! (: and i know you're not feeling so happy again right now, probably because of something, but i dont know what it is, but cheer up okay dear??? (:

haha, thats all for today folks, i'm off to cheer my girlfriend up! byebye! (:

Labels: i need to cheer you up ar (:

feeling so tired right now, had a match against tanglin just now,we won by 4. Could have won by much more, but i guess most of us wasn't really in the mood for basketball as we still ar, or rather i am still in the holiday mood :D

had a wonderful time with cheryl! (: we went to watch ah long! (: a typical jack neo movie i would say (: but we enjoyed each other's company alot during the movie (: i managed to get the couple seats thanks to marvin! thank you so much for booking for me! (: just finished studying for maths, having test tomorrow, and i'm feeling as lethargic as ever (: hopefully tomorrow's school will be as smooth as today's (: hope you enjoyed my company today honey (: we'll go shopping for your friends' valentine's gifts tomorrow! (:

Labels: a week alone with you would be perfect :D, i need a break from life

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HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!! (especially my dearest girlfriend!!!! (: )
may the year ahead be prosperous in every aspect of your life! 2008!!! the year with 3 8's!!! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER!!! (CHENG SIONG)
I haven't got you a present yet but rest assured you'll get one on either monday or tuesday! haha! 16 already! can legally fool around already ar! hahahaha! okay lar bro, best of luck for your o's this year, and best of luck for everything else! your brother will always be there for you when you need me man! brothers for life!!! (: happy birthday!!!!

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HOOOOOORAY!!!!
that's it for lesson's for this week for its cny celebrations tomorrow and the day after the is the actual thing! money collecting, family visiting, etc etc. i just got back from an afternoon at irvin's place followed by kaya roti and eggs at west mall with brothers: cheng siong, yi han, alan and of course brandon (: we had lots of fun playing with the pepper and brandon managed to squeeze a bit of it into cheng siong's nose! simply hilarious. (: school was pretty smooth sailing today, no hiccups and no really high things to talk about.

On to my relationship now, cheryl has had better days but i'm glad that just before dinner, which she is having right now, i managed to hear a change in tone. Which hopefully signifies the end of a really nasty day (: i know its difficult to really ignore her right now dear, but i believe you can do it! i'll be by your side every step of the way, just like your safety net! (: no matter how grumpy you can get i won't let it affect me. Why? because if you and i were both to be grumpy, who's gonna cheer who up? haha :P anyways, i'm so glad to hear your voice being slightly happier just now! (: and it better stay that way for the rest of the day ar .. haha! :P

okay lar, going off for dinner already. hope you guys like the new skin! (:

Labels: I'll be there with your through it all (:

sick of school, schoolwork and school life.

haha! anyways, with that aside, congrats to baby's bestie who's from tanglin for going into second round (:

Met cheryl at river valley just now and she was super bored because she was getting impatient waiting for her bestie's match to finish. While doing so, she couldn't play her dearest nds because its battery went flat! haha! :P luckily i was there entertaining you right cheryl? :P anyway when they finished their match they had to wait for the lots of the second round to be drawn and this made my girlfriend even more impatient as she was dying to get home (: in the end, we finally got the letter and headed back home, and that was about it for today, nothing much actually. just really really sick of school that's all (: apologise for today's extremely short post (:

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For every one of the single day for the past 6 months, this is just a small gift from me to you. Thank you for giving me your love and care for every one of those days sweetheart. I'm so thankful for you and everything you've given me. You're the best darn girlfriend a guy can ever have. And i am one lucky guy (: