just a little correction to the last part. its too unlike me to give up so easily.

i'm gonna fight for what i want. ain't nothing gonna snatch it away. Won't hurt to try anyway (:

hello one and all!
thank you persistent readers that still visit this blog for updates that never come.

first things first, a very big happy Chinese new year to everyone!!!
the first day (Chu Yi), has just passed and we've got another wonderful holiday tomorrow to receive paper packets of money! Today's been pretty good, despite some setbacks.

Though i'm feeling kinda emo-ish right now, i'll still try to post a respectable lengthed post for you readers alright?

Loads of things have happened over the past few months, broken things have been mended, mended things have been broken. Honestly, its mostly a struggle everyday, to live with the kinda problems that i wake up to everyday. thank you all those that have been giving me endless support through this dark time in my life.

Yet thankfully we are given the freedom to think, and that has given me to smile at the darkest of moments everyday, looking at my cups half-full. For everything i think its worthless to live for, i find something else worth living for. Things haven't been easy, and they aren't even half solved yet. I wear a face that exactly expresses how i feel. Happy, Sad, Sick, Constipated. But i find that its masked by a mask of smiles, not worn on purpose. But actually been hand-made by each laughter i have each day. Yes there may seem to be much more things to be emotional about, but its looking forward to something else to laugh at that makes life meaningful to fight for. Whether or not God's on my side, i know one thing's for sure, and that's the fact that i've got many to love and have been loved by to be thankful for. was talking to cheryl just now, (just for those who do not know, we are no longer attached, by we still dearly care for each other as the best of friends that we can be.), and she told me that i didn't need to thank her for asking my about how i was feeling (because my pm on msn was: stop playing tricks with me.), for showing me concern, because she wasn't the dearest to me anymore.

See, thing is, we have to learn how to be thankful for every bit of life. And never take things for granted (so cliche right?), but how many of us really do so? Sometimes we just need to slow the pace of our lives down and take notice of the beautiful scenery around us, the people that care for us, be it our parents, or the security guard, your grandma, or distant friends. We must always be thankful and acknowledge the fact that in this world, we never ever stand alone. because there will always be someone that'll be there for you. It doesn't have to be someone dear, it doesn't have to be your boyfriend/girlfriend, it could be a person in school that you've never spoken to before.

So treasure every single soul around you, and accept it with a good heart. We are humans, we have consciences, we are all equal in terms of character. There is no good or bad person. Its the actions that we carry out that equate our good or bad personality. Because no matter what, we all have some good, then again some bad, in us. Its just how you want to look at it. Bad or Good, Good or Bad, we're still humans, and its natural for us to make errors, so learn to forgive, forget and love. love everyone around you like you've never before, because they'll love you right back.

Reason for my bad mood for the first hour of the second day of chinese new year? well, let's just say i thought i found my lost tooth, only to find out it got taken away by the tooth fairy. (:

Happy new year one and all. thanks for reading people. love you all (:

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