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i'm gonna fight for it

2009-01-27T01:41:00.000+08:00

just a little correction to the last part. its too unlike me to give up so easily.

i'm gonna fight for what i want. ain't nothing gonna snatch it away. Won't hurt to try anyway (:

hello, once again

2009-01-27T01:02:00.002+08:00

hello one and all!
thank you persistent readers that still visit this blog for updates that never come.

first things first, a very big happy Chinese new year to everyone!!!
the first day (Chu Yi), has just passed and we've got another wonderful holiday tomorrow to receive paper packets of money! Today's been pretty good, despite some setbacks.

Though i'm feeling kinda emo-ish right now, i'll still try to post a respectable lengthed post for you readers alright?

Loads of things have happened over the past few months, broken things have been mended, mended things have been broken. Honestly, its mostly a struggle everyday, to live with the kinda problems that i wake up to everyday. thank you all those that have been giving me endless support through this dark time in my life.

Yet thankfully we are given the freedom to think, and that has given me to smile at the darkest of moments everyday, looking at my cups half-full. For everything i think its worthless to live for, i find something else worth living for. Things haven't been easy, and they aren't even half solved yet. I wear a face that exactly expresses how i feel. Happy, Sad, Sick, Constipated. But i find that its masked by a mask of smiles, not worn on purpose. But actually been hand-made by each laughter i have each day. Yes there may seem to be much more things to be emotional about, but its looking forward to something else to laugh at that makes life meaningful to fight for. Whether or not God's on my side, i know one thing's for sure, and that's the fact that i've got many to love and have been loved by to be thankful for. was talking to cheryl just now, (just for those who do not know, we are no longer attached, by we still dearly care for each other as the best of friends that we can be.), and she told me that i didn't need to thank her for asking my about how i was feeling (because my pm on msn was: stop playing tricks with me.), for showing me concern, because she wasn't the dearest to me anymore.

See, thing is, we have to learn how to be thankful for every bit of life. And never take things for granted (so cliche right?), but how many of us really do so? Sometimes we just need to slow the pace of our lives down and take notice of the beautiful scenery around us, the people that care for us, be it our parents, or the security guard, your grandma, or distant friends. We must always be thankful and acknowledge the fact that in this world, we never ever stand alone. because there will always be someone that'll be there for you. It doesn't have to be someone dear, it doesn't have to be your boyfriend/girlfriend, it could be a person in school that you've never spoken to before.

So treasure every single soul around you, and accept it with a good heart. We are humans, we have consciences, we are all equal in terms of character. There is no good or bad person. Its the actions that we carry out that equate our good or bad personality. Because no matter what, we all have some good, then again some bad, in us. Its just how you want to look at it. Bad or Good, Good or Bad, we're still humans, and its natural for us to make errors, so learn to forgive, forget and love. love everyone around you like you've never before, because they'll love you right back.

Reason for my bad mood for the first hour of the second day of chinese new year? well, let's just say i thought i found my lost tooth, only to find out it got taken away by the tooth fairy. (:

Happy new year one and all. thanks for reading people. love you all (:

Apologies to one and all

2008-11-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

This isn't much of a post. haha. Just wanted to apologise to people that have been coming to this blog and awaiting updates.

Anyway, i've been really caught up with the NCC's 56th Cadet Officer Course that stretches over a course of three weeks. Its a non-stay-in camp so i still have the luxury of returning home to my comfy bed at home. Sadly the camp site is at Ncc HQ which is at Yio Chu Kang. Staying at Lakeside means a 45 minute mrt trip which excludes the 10 - 15 minute walk to the camp. As the course starts at 720 every weekday, that means waking up at about 520 every morning.

Another thing is that it usually ends at about 5 plus. Which means that it'll take me till about 6 ++ - 7 to get home. Imagine how tiring it is eh. Well anyways, I've gone back again to my gym schedule as of just now, and i'm still wide awake. Gonna take a shower in just a bit, catch a little bit of mobtv and then its a 2 way trip to lalaland. (:

I'm so sorry this blog's becoming so dead. I'll try to post on either saturday or sunday alright people? till then, thanks so much for patronizing this silly little blog. Hope all you people out there are having a fully occupied and productive holiday so far. Just like me, except that mine's on overdrive for three bloody weeks. haha. take care ya'll. bye!

2008-11-11T20:10:00.006+08:00

HELLO AGAIN!!!

Okay, its been quite a while since i last updated. Last wednesday in fact, so its actually been a week. haha, blame it on the "tomorrow then post lah" attitude. haha.

Whatever it is, what matters now is that i am back to posting again and i've got to update you on a week, or at least close to a week's period of happenings.

And this time, i'm just gonna keep the words as short as possible, because there are just too many photos today, and i'm not really in the mood to post right now. haha.

so here we go,

FRIDAY

HELL YEAH!!! end of LIT p1 and p2. Which also marked the end of the Written Exams for O's, and it soooooooo can kiss my ass. haha. anyway, so after the pape Alan and I were supposed to go shopping with Wenxin, Pei Jun, Wy-lin and Beatrice. But something on the girls' side cropped up so we ended up postponing the outing to the following monday. So Alan was like, " bro i wanna go out man. Ask the bros, maybe go out for dinner or something.". And, based on the ever-reliableness of the "brotherhood" we met at 330 and headed to over to town. As i had conveniently already brought my clothes for the supposed outing with the girls, i simply headed to Alan's place to take a bath. haha.

The bus trip was uh, well fun i guess? haha. with a few of the guys making fun of people who were wearing shades and boarding the bus during the particularly "scorching" day. And also they were laughing at the noticably large amount of aunties on the bus. haha, bunch of buggers i've got for brothers.

anyway we had SUCH a fun time at town. haha. Best time was at Taka, when the men were all starving. you know the b2 section just outside the food court? The one that has LOADS of finger-foods? yeah that one. We Had Japanese Kebabs, or whatever you call it, Takopachi, brownie. And i have to tell you we were totally gorging ourselves with food. What to do? We're hungry men, and when men are hungry, they take what to eat. (but in singapore, "taking" means you have to put up a sum of money first. haha)

We patronized quite a number of malls, and Jia Hao spotted a watch from Fossil that he liked, and i heard from Cheng Siong that he has it already. haha. $215, i wish i could get things i wanted that easily as well. and, we headed over to Hip Diner to have dinner. THE VERY SAME PLACE WE HAD DINNER IN FEBRUARY, DURING ALAN'S WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION. and i had to say it was totally nostalgic having dinner there. And i was telling they guys, " you know what bros, we were having dinner here 9 months ago, at this very restaurant, and we toasted, everyone of us, to a successful road to the O's, and of course the O's itself. Its been so fast, 9 months, had just passed us by, and now, we're almost finished with O's already." haha, one thing i didn't tell them was, "I'm gonna miss you guys, you know?". Why? because i was already holding in my tears already, just that they didn't know. So i'd suppose it'll come as a shocker to them. Why would i tear? well, going through so much with these guys, and knowing that they've been there all this while, like how i've been there for them, and thinking that recess basketball would be gone, and everything, its just too much for me. Yes yes i'm a big wuss, and i'm being gay sensitive. haha, but well, that's the affection i have for these chaps. And i think during the party i will cry, so all those that wanna see a big dude like me have tears run down his face, just come. I'll be the highlight of your night. LOL.

After dinner we walked around Cineleisure for a little while, and sweet sweet mummy came to pick us up. 4 guys had to squeeze behind. haha. because there were only 5 of us. we had a load of fun on the car, joking around and keeping my mummy entertained. She dropped them off at Alan's place cos my bag was still at his place. After that we headed home, and while fooling around with my guitar amp, i just thought of something totally awesome for the party. Won't tell you what it is though, but there's a BIG clue in the photo below.

It's really obvious eh? haha.

This is the wonderful bill from the dinner. I can't believe 16 bucks of nothing. haha. (GST and Service Tax)

During the weekend, we celebrated my cousins', Nicky's and Nigel's birthday! Why together? well, first of all, they're brothers. And the second thing is that Nicky (17), has his birthday on the 7th, and Nigel(15), has his birthday on the 9th, so my aunt can conveniently kill two birds with one stone and celebrate them both together. Financially effective actually, only having to spend money on one meal for the huge amount of relatives i have. haha. Don't have photos on that, so don't really have much to talk about that. Oh, though i have to say Manchester United always loses whenever they play big matches. Just horrid, watching them play against Arsenal. Tsk tsk, when they're supposed to pass, they don't. When they should chiong, they don't. how to score? Oh and my dear Aunt Meiling made me a lovely Vodka Martini, "shaken, not stirred" (James Bond eh?). it consisted of 1 part Vodka and 5 parts Martini Vermouth. Strong Strong drink, haha. had difficulty finish it. At least the taste was still okay though, because the Vermouth sweetenend the drink up. So that's about it for Saturday.

For Sunday, well just another normal weekend at daddy's place, playing with ryan and stuff. oh, and I packed up Daddy's sound system for him, and it looks much nicer now. Sadly i found out his REL sub was screwed, so another mission for the holidays, to search for another woofer piece, because the box is still reusable. Hopefully I'll be able to find the exact same one.

MONDAY!!!

End of Physics p1, and the official marking of " LEFT ONE MORE PAPER ONLY LAH". haha. Um, i went to BK with a few of the guys for breakfast, which i did not have because i had a heavy breakfast at home. Anyway, i headed home after that, and got ready to go out with the girls. I was the only guy because Alan felt "awkward" going. haha. (sorry for exploiting you bro! lol)

Had an awesome time shopping with the girls. Ravaging through racks and racks of clothes. I'M NOT GAY JUST IN CASE SOME OF YOU ARE WONDERING. its just that i've developed a habit of shopping with women since i was young, because mummy always brought me out shopping with her. and I used to be extremely bored. but as i grew older, i started giving opinions on what she would wear, and what suited her. haha. hey, that's what you get when you live around women all the time. Anyway, back to the shopping. We went to Vivo, i met Wy-lin first, then Wen Xin, and finally Pei Jun. We went to almost every possible shop in Vivo with ladies' clothes. I did try a few coats too, autumn/winter season you see, and i have to say i did look good in one that i found at River Island. Was so Tempting to get it, but it costed a whopping $199, and i already had a blazer at home, so i thought it would've been a waste to get it. So back onto the rack it went.

After a while we decided to get coffee at the Pacific Coffee Company Cafe. My treat! haha. i had a Mocha, while the girls had, well i can't remember. Anyway, we gossiped away on certain topics of which i will not reveal. haha. It is gossip after all. And we took a couple of pictures together as well.

This was at Topshop, with Wy-lin trying on an awesome looking purple coat, that toally made her look uber-cool. haha. i had to help her fold the collar upwards to make it look cooler, which explains why i was in the photo.

Photos at the Cafe (:

Despite the editing, the photo of me, Pj and Wy-lin was still overexposed. So, it kinda looks like that i have a sort of aura eh? haha.

After coffee we walked around Vivo for a while more and dispersed at around 5 i think? Anyway, was great window-shopping with you girls!!! Let's do that plus coffee plus gossiping again sometime soon yeah? haha. (:

On the way home, i got a few interesting things at the Mama stall near Daddy's place, though i didn't drop by his place. Wondering what it is? haha. It's something for the party, check out the photo after this.

took a shot of this on the train back home. It's a new system that they have installed on the trains to let you know which stop its at, to know which door is opening. Like, they SOOOO should've included this on our trains a long time ago. Even Hong Kong already had it like, 3-4 years back. But anyway, at least they have it. And they better install it in every train. haha.

YUP! BOOZE! the HARD LIQUOR!! a larger bottle of Bacardi, followed by lovely mexican-made tequila for the magaritas! and a 750 ml bottle of vodka along (: Are you in the party mood?? haha.

And, This following vodka was given to me by my Aunt Meiling during one of her overseas trips and she got it at DFS (Duty Free Shopping) at the airport. BUT, Upong passing it to mummy, she hid it in the house. but i have found it!!! Muahahahahaa!!

still considering whether to bring this wonderfully brewed Aboslut 100 to the party. haha. It's really precious to me. and i've gotta say, the bottle is just AWESOME!! Enjoy looking at it (:

TODAY!

I went over to the Hong Kah Market to try to get my blazer altered for the prom! Sadly, they didn't alter blazers. So i decided to try my luck at the other market, the one that's near Fuhua Sec. And Thankfully!!! though they've never done it before, they were willing to give it a try. and for only 10 bucks! why don't i get it altered at Zara or something instead? (because the blazer's from Zara) Its because by the time they were to be done with it, the prom would've been long over!

Thank you so much, the two sweet old ladies that were willing to alter my blazer (:

After that, i headed over to the bird shop at block 242 with the intention of getting a new, much larger bird cage as compared to the current one that i have.

There's the little dude in his new home!!!

And guess who's got a new girlfriend?? (me? haha.)

NAHH.. just kidding, its the bird dude that's got a new girlfriend. haha. because i felt so terribly guilty for letting his girlfriend free.

looks exactly like his old girlfriend eh? (refer to previous post) haha.

Look at the size of the new cage!! i feel happy for them as well, for having a new, much larger home. Because their old cage was just terribly small, and didn't even have space for them to flying around at least a little.

Just a comparison with the two older cages. Enjoy your new home buddies (:

Well, i said earlier that it'll be less wordy. I guess i lied? haha. sorry people! But i hope you'll still patronize 'mua' blog because its well, it occupies your time because there's so much to read, and its in detail too! Which is why its so bloody wordy. Moreover, for those not taking Bio, ITS THE LAST PAPER TOMORROWW!!!! WOOOOOOOHHHHHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

And that way you've got lots of free time read really really wordy blogs.

Such as this! haha.

anyway, its been close to a month that i've broken up with cheryl. Have to say its really difficult to forget her sometimes. It's like experiencing a change of lifestyle. So everytime when i'd lie down on the bed and chat with her on the phone, i'd now find myself lying down and talking to myself. haha. We were chatting as i was blogging, so we talked about loads of stuff. Like how her stubborness caused lots of conflicts. And how she'd not like the way i handle things when i'm pissed (probably because i rarely am? Mummy's nagging is an exception though. haha.)

anyway i just hope you'd heed my advice cheryl, to handle your problem. its time to learn to love yourself (: and don't fear taking new steps. you can do it, you've got people that believe you can. People like me, so have faith in yourself alright? Hope you can make a big change in your life and your lifestyle!! All the best with everything that's coming sweetheart!

Thanks for reading this wordy post. Just another reminder, the prom after-party is NEXT MONDAY!!! So pull along everyone that you know to the party alright? the more the merrier eh? And i'd love it if we have loads of people at the party. So spread the word about the party alright? try to make sure everyone knows eh? i don't have everyone's number so i can't possibly notify everyone. and that's where you come in!!! so tell all your fellow classmates about it!

Hope to see you there.

AND SCREW THE O'S!!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!

party, party, PARTAE!!!!!

2008-11-05T21:21:00.008+08:00

Ahhhh, chinese is once again over... (like i actually studied for it in the first place)

haha. anyway, the paper was pretty okay today. I think i totally screwed the letter writing because there were just to many things i wanted to write in english that i failed to convert in to chinese.. BUT! thankfully the second half of paper one was relatively straightforward with the topic for the newspaper report being: teenagers are unable to survive with their handphones today".Paper 2 was a real breeze because the passages were just too simple and straightforward.

As in literally. All those people who have done Chinese in June, if you ever tried this one, i think you'd say its at least 2 times easier than the June paper. Why? because its so straightforward LOR. haha. the passages were simple to read even for a "jia kantang" (means eat potato in Hokkien, its actually a metaphor for a person that only knows how to speak and live the western lifestyle. Hence the reference to potato, because we chinese eat mainly rice and not potato) person like me. haha. so all the best to everyone who has retaken Chinese today, and hopefully we'll all get a better grade eh? If not the gamble of $24 would go right into Cambridge's pocket.

okay, on to the main events for the day!
(listening to rap music to get into the partae mood! You Don't Know, By Eminem)

Uh, sad news first.
the bird, the female one, flew away at about 430 this afternoon. Yes, out of the window and out of my life. It wasn't really my $35 that flew away (that's the cost of the bird), its actually the sile companion for the male chap that's still in the cage. haha. Blame myself for assuming that she wouldn't fly away. But she's gone now, so at least she's free eh? just hope she knows how to survive the Singapore environment
All the best with life my darling (:

Alright! let's start with the events that followed after the Chinese paper eh? Basically, i went down to Little India from school, headed for Dalhousie Lane to this second-hand audio shop that was winding up temporarily and had really good speakers on sale. After trekking through numerous streets, i finally came upon the shop! And i have to say Little India is really little india, it was my first time there and i didn't expect that the Indian population there would be that concentrated. Really interesting place, but a killer place for my diet though, with all the awesome aromas of indian food..Ahhhh..

(Like This, by MIMS playing right now.)

Originally i went to the shop with the idea in mind of setting my hands on a pair of speakers for my home theatre system in my room. As i stepped into the shop, a pair of KEF Q50s caught my eye immediately. Starting chatting with the boss, Kim (he's a guy ar), nice chap, late 40s to early 50s i'd say. Unmarried, because he told me he felt money was more important. haha! He offered me the speakers at a low low of $150. boy, i have to tell you how TEMPTED i was to buy those babies!!!

(Without Me, by Eminem playing, AWESOME SONG!!!)

Apparently, there was a Caucasian dude that was coming to audition the speakers as well, but the uncle was sooo nice to me that he told me if i wanted them, i could buy it first and he would tell the caucasian that he'd sold it already. Isn't that nice of him?? haha. But, being super hesitant about the situation, and the fact that if i spent that money, i'd have problem getting the booze, i decided to see where my fate lied, and decided to wait for the caucasian dude to come and see if he decides to get them. And eventually, he came, and he got it. haha.

(In Da Club, by 50Cent playing. Question: where on earth did 50Cent go?? )

After that, i was really tempted to get something from the shop because i was just so reluctant to leave the shop empty handed. haha. But, for the sake of you guys who are attending the party, I decided to leave empty handed! With the same $240 i had in my wallet before i entered the shop. haha.

Wondering why i brought so much? well, the pictures below will say it all. haha.

Moving on!
(Window Shopper, By 50Cent playing)

I left the shop empty-handed, heading in the direction of Tekka Mall which was right in front of the shop. Cut through Tekka Mall's Food Court and found myself at the bus stop. Diagonally across was SIM LIM SQUARE. (drooling like mad) Forcing my head in the direction of the bus stop, i went to see what bus could get me to Suntec, or at least the closest to Suntec. And that was 960, which got me as far as Bugis.

While i was on the bus, this old lady just totally cheered me up. Why? well its because while i was on the bus,

(Smack That, by Akon feat. Eminem playing. woohoo! )

she kept receiving calls. And I'm sure you guys know the "delay time" that senior citizens tend to have before they think of pressing the green phone button (aka answer call button). So she kept picking up the phone and went: "Halo? Halo?? HALO?! HALO?! " and then some cantonese words shot out which i was totally unable to understand. haha. This wasn't funny the first time, but when she kept getting the call 3 times after, i couldn't help but laugh to myself. Just pitied the old lady because she took some time to take out the phone to answer but the bugger on the other end of the phone just wouldn't say anything. So to avoid exploding my laughter in front of her, i moved over to the rear of the bus where there was vacant seat. From which, i finally heard her talking on the phone to someone, what a relieve for her! haha. Thank you old cantonese lady, you made my day by ridding my mind of the thoughts of the speakers!

Okay, i think i've talked enough about the unimportant stuff. Here's the important topic of the day!

After changing out of my school uniform at Bugis i walked over to Suntec and finally got to Carrefour. Where i got, the precious, the wonderful, party starters.

BOOZE!!!!

Yes, what you see in the picture are 3 kegs of Heineken, 5 Litres each. This is to be the main drink i was shopping for in Carrefour. Followed by a Magarita Mix for mixing drinks (supposedly for tequila only, so if you have bottle of tequila at home, try to bring it for the party eh?) and last but definitely not least, was a upscaled version of the standard sized Hooegarden beer. A full 750ml of it. This is actually for Alan, because of his desire for Hooegarden. haha. Actually i love Hooegarden too, its just its unique taste and foamy make. And uh, the 10 bucks is there for you to get an idea how big the kegs of beer actually are. Adorable aren't they? haha.

A veritcal shot of the drinks. See how big the Hooegarden is? haha.

It's enormous eh?

This is the label on the back of the Magarita Mix. Sadly its in Espanol, anyone here knows how to read it? haha.

This, is where the booze is safely tucked away from the line of vision of my mumma. haha. Under my bed!

And this is for one and all to see, the shocking prices of the totalled amount of money the booze costed. haha!

Interesting eh?

(Ridin' Dirty playing, i don't have the artise's name)

anyway, i've been approached by an ocean of people and questions for the party! A pretty satisfying response so far i must say. Do try to inform me if you're coming eh? That way I'll know if i need to get drinks or food. And uh, don't worry my non-alcoholic friends, I'll be getting the soft drinks either from Sheng Siong, or from the Cheers that's near the chalet. (:

Here's somemore details about the party:

It's Free Of Charge! (though i'll be putting a cute little tip bowl at the chalet for all those who'd

like to make a small donation)

It's at the Costa Sands Resort at Pasir Ris.

It's immediately after the Prom.

It's totally okay if you don't drink.

It's alright to ask your friends to come along.

There are no parents around, for those who are worried my mum would be there or something.

But don't worry I'll keep things controlled (:

There's no need to worry who's coming or not. If you're thinking of coming, just come, and pull

your pals along. Because I've got lots of people asking me who's going and who's not. And i think that's really affecting a lot of people's decision. Let the others' worry about themselves. Just make sure you yourself have a good time alright?

And for the ladies, In case you're worried about drunk guys trying to be "funny", I've been working out hardcore at the gym, and i will make sure no funny business happens. So don't worry alright? and even if i'm drunk, i'm still really conscious, its just me playing sport if i walk around like a fool to entertain everyone and get everyone into the mood. (:

And uh, just wanna say a big thank you to Nicholas of 4E4, who's just so happen to be clearing his liquor cupboard, and offering me a couple of hard liquor drinks. E.g Bacardi, Shandy. Thank you so much Nicholas!! and i'm sure all the party people are thankful to you too.

Looking forward to people telling me, I can't wait!!!! haha. Have a nice day people, and thank you for coming to my blog once again! Feel free to ask me questions if you have any (: Try to make it yeah? the more the merrier! Till the next post, ciao my fellow party-peeps!!

here we go... party time!

2008-11-04T20:45:00.002+08:00

Okay everybody, here's another fresh post right off the stove.
(Listening to club techno music now, titled: the roof is on fire)

haha. bobbing my head now while i'm posting. i'm listening to club techno to get myself into the mood of blogging because i had a huge quarrel with my mum just about 40 mins ago. She seriously needs to give me some room to breathe. I know she's worried, but her son, me, has at least the smallest amount of responsibility to know when its time to study. I just hate shouting at her sometimes, because i know i shouldn't and i really don't want to. But sometimes, my mum being my mum, we need to up our tone a little before she listens (personal experience from me and sister, just ask her). I really wish sometimes we can talk nicely about certain topics, but its just getting worse and worse. Hopefully its just a phase eh?

(Song just switched to Calcutta!! you know that old old techno song that went: "CALCUTTA, A am a taxi driver in CALCUTTA, I drive my little taxi in CALCUTTA, ......." yeah that awesome song (: Ahhhhh nostalgia running through my veins.)

okay back to where i was. I definitely love her, but sometimes she needs someone to listen to. The other day, i accidently said that she needed a man in her life (because my parents are divorced), and now i'm terribly regretting it. Because it wasn't a man she needed in her life. She just needed someone whom she could look up to, to know that every word coming out of that person's life is true, or at least good enough to digest into her life. Sadly, i feel she doesn't have anybody right now. Sometimes i wish i could be that person. Being me, and having gone through all the bullshit that's been going on in my life, i've come to learn many ways on how to cope with problems in life and how to move on. I've helped many friends before, family as well, (just ask them), but the one person i really wish i could help is my mum. Yes, things are getting better and she is starting to listen to me, but there are times when she justs puts herself a little too high up for anyone of us to get to her. Let's just hope that things will continue getting better eh? i don't want my mum leading a life with a half potful of principles, i want to give her my potful of principles (:

Anyway, my mum loves Kylie Minogue, and Kylie's coming on the 25th of this month! so i think i'm gonna surprise her by getting her tickets for the concert. Probably dropping by vivo tomorrow to get a pair of tickets since there's a Sistic outlet there. the cheapest are 50 bucks a piece, followed by 150, 250, 350 and 550. Bloody kylie, why are you tickets so expensive? i'm really afraid that if i get the 50 bucks tickets, i won't be able to see at least her face. haha. Better bring binoculars to be safe.

(song has just switched to Rock Your Body Rock, By Ferry Corsten. If i'm not wrong its a song that was in the game Fifa 2006 on Xbox.)

Moving on,

Nothing much really happened today. Woke up really late from that tiring game of basketball the night before. haha. At 1230pm to be precise. Went over to the bird shop to take a look at Mata Putehs (those little yellow-green birds with a white ring around their eyes. They're really small sized) because i was thinking of rearing them. So i was looking at the $40 ones since they were the cheapest and it was my first time at rearing these birds. And uh, they're buy one get free. Which meant if i decided to get one, i'd have to get two cages for the birds, because they're rather territorial i think. So i was really hesitant on getting the bird. After spending about an hour looking at the birds (this is because you need to see which are the better birds, and to see which is male or female. and the only way of differentiating the male from the female is by watching closely at their belly area, and if you see it vibrating really fast, it means that its a male.) After a full hour i could see no vibrating bellies. haha.

And then there was this middle-aged or slightly above that malay dude who came to look at the birds too. And apparently he taught me a few more things to look out for to tell if the bird can actually sing. (oh by the way only the males can sing. and uh, his technique wasn't really to tell the sex, but actually to see which one can sing. You may think its as good as telling the gender, but i'd still think that looking at the vibrating body is a more assured sign.) And that was to see that the bird had a long body, and that the rings around its eyes should be as white as possible. And while i was busy trying to spray water at a bird that i wanted (because you spray the bird that you see with water so that you can tell it apart from the dozens of other birds in the same cage), he was paying for his purchase. Finally i just gave up because i was getting really tired of darting my eyes around the cage trying to spot the bird that i was keeping my eye on. Moreover, there was thunder and was about to rain, so I thought that if i'd gotten the bird, it might get wet. So maybe another day.

And i left the shop for Cheers to get hi-fibre bread which mum wanted, and went home.

(i just switched to club rock music because the techno was getting boring, and now Starlight by Muse is playing! )

And for the rest of the day it was pretty much slacking at home.

And now! for the moment that you've all been waiting for!! (for the BBSS peeps going to the prom only actually) The details of the party! Well, i leaked out most of the info the day before already, so i'll try to add in more juicy details to make it seem more interesting alright?

Yes, there will be an after-prom party on the 17th of November, immediately after prom is over. Why? because we feel that prom alone isn't enough of a celebration for everyone that has ended this chapter of their lives! So come and join us, the chalet i have booked is the Costa Sands resort at Pasir Ris. I booked a double-storey room so there'd be more space downstairs. And don't worry about what you're wearing, because we're all dressed up nicely too (: We can have a BBQ if there are still a few hungry souls when we reach the location. And uh, for transportation, i predict that there'd be enough time to catch the train to pasir ris. However, as for the last bus to the chalet, maybe not. But what the heck, you can cab down from Pasir Ris MRT station if you want to. For all those who drink, Yes, There will most definitely be alcoholic drinks. (Beer/Vodka/Bacardi and we'll be mixing drinks as well, so just place your order and you'll get what you want.) and for all those who want a bit of alcohol, i'll be getting jolly shandy, so not to worry, you'll be "drinking" too (: And uh, we'll have red wine, kindly sponsored by my beloved "Brother" Alan Chee! I'll try to get a few bottles too. If the response for the party is good, there'll be about 15 to 20 litres of beer. If it isn't, then probably just 10 or 15, once again, depending on the respone. So make sure you do tell me if you're going! Either my sms, email, msn, friendster, facebook. My email's orangejooz@hotmail.com and my Number is 93546512 ( my prepaid number). Looking forward to meet all of you!!!! And uh, there'll be music, don't worry. haha (: And for the non-alcoholic drinkers, there will most definitely be soft drinks available, so party the night away ladies and gentlemen!!!

Bet all those people who are going for the prom can't wait for O's to be over now right, now that there's a party. haha. Try to get permission from Mummy or Daddy ASAP so you won't have trouble if you ask on the night itself.

Once again I'm looking forward to see a huge crowd. So spread the word of party amongst the prom people of BBSS yeah? thank you so much!!! and see you guys at prom! (:

(Wonderful song to end the post: Shook Me All Night Long, By ACDC (: )

Goodbye one and all, come back again soon for more posts! (:
and thank you so much for tagging people!! (: continue doing so!!!

revival? i think so

2008-11-03T23:41:00.007+08:00

woah... i went into blogger and the first thing i saw was: 49 posts, last published Aug 7 2008.that was like, 3 months ago man..

wow. well still ain't as bad as my last record. Which stood at about, 3 years? but that was another blog if i remember correctly.

anyway, big orgy of things to post right now, can't decide what's important to update you guys about my life. especially those that have been begging for me to post. haha. (alan for example)so let's start with pictures, since i love posting pictures so much, because i feel it makes more sense for people to read and see what i actually mean rather than trying to use their "IMAGINATION" (quoted from our beloved spongebob squarepants) to figure out: WHAT THE _____(fill in this with whatever word suits you best) is that guy trying to say??? some might feel words are too vague, while others, boring. So likewise, i'll give you photos and words so you can join together this lovely puzzle of mine.

First up ladies and gentlemen, here's a photo i took of, girls' hairbands if i'm not wrong. obviously its in jap, and i got came across this in Daiso, and i knew not taking a picture of this would be a sin. haha. Ever since my trip to Hokkaido, Japan, last year, I've never forgotten the extent the japanese would go to try to make sure the description of whatever it is of the product was clearly and accurately carried through. Just by looking at the photo below, i'm sure you guys know what i mean. haha. Instinctively i couldn't help but laugh at the hilarious combination of words. though the only thing that was really unclear was the phrase, "the child way". HAHA.. enjoy!

and please, while you're laughing, appreciate the fact that they are trying their best to ensure that the english-speaking consumer, us, is well informed of what to do and what not to do with their product. Of course they did it with lots of humour. haha. (:

MOVING ON!
For all those who don't know, I have got a pair of new pet birds! Budgies to be accurate. Of course i got a male and a female, wouldn't want to get to of the same gender if not.. well let's just say they'll be really bored yeah? haha. The female has the tendency to bite whatever its standing on. So whenever i let it on my finger, she'd nibble away on my entire hand. The male however is more "guai" and likes to walk from finger to finger. haha. Pretty thankful for these pet birds because i felt my life was really boring and i needed companions at home that could just listen to whatever i said and not quarrel back. (unlike mummy or big sister.) adore them, and if you want more photos just ask and they shall be taken. (:

and uh, just in case you're wondering which is which, don't try looking at their belows thinking that you might find a difference. haha. look at their noses. the one with a blue bridge is the male (: oh and uh, i didn't mean to boast my award on the first photo eh, it just so happened that he posted beautifully on it, so i thought what the heck, its a great shot anyway ain't it?

Done with that and moving once again!
lovely shot isn't it? haha. there's actually a story behind why i only posted one of the many photos that i took on the last day of school for the sec 4Es and 5Ns in BBSS. and that is.. when i got home after the tiring day of shooting, i thought i'd load the photos up and take a look at a few of them on my lappy here, and while i was looking at shot after shot, i came across this shot and decided to edit it first, to just take a look at much editing i could do with the lighting, contrast and saturation of the photo. Turns out it was a pretty cool shot, (in fact the first jumpshot i was ever in and also the first the n70 had ever taken). We had beautiful lighting from the sun that day and the conditions were perfect for a jumpshot photoshoot. And just after i saved that very one photo, the entire memory card that contained ALL the photos that i took that day crashed, and the photos were lost. To be honest with you readers i almost teared, because i'd lost one of the most precious photo shoots i have ever done in my life. I spent a full half and hour trying and trying to see if the photos were still there. sadly, nothing was detected. And i lost all the photos of the wonderful class of 4E2. In my mind i just thought: "how the hell am i supposed to explain to them where the photos went." and they were gone, all 182 of them, like, into thin air. except for that one photo that consisted of (from left) Cecilia/Wy-lin/Me/Pei Jun/Wen Xin.

BUT GUESS WHAT?

I SAVED THE PHOTOS IN THE END!!!
or rather my uncle did. and THANK GOD i have a computer geek uncle!!! he's gotta be the ULTIMATE computer whizz.. or at least he is to me. Later in the day i had the memory passed to mummy whom helped me pass it to him a few days later. and with his computer-blessed hands, he brought back to life what was once thought never to be seen again. myth turned into legend. legend into reality. (quoted from LOTR Fellowship of The Ring. haha!) well anyway, good news for you 4E2 people passing by, because THE PHOTOS ARE SAVED!!! WOOOHOOO!!! and i promise i'll try to get the photos into discs and given to you guys. oh and uh, cos the photos are so large (sized) and stuff, i think i might burn them into DVDs, so make sure you've got something that can read a dvd yeah. Oh, i have yet to get my hands on the retrieved photos, so fear not people, i'll be posting more of them when i get them back (:

That's the end of that, sorry if i scared a few of you people about the losing of photos. haha.
moving on,

007.

Quantum
Of
Solace.

MY MOST AWAITED MOVIE OF THE YEAR!!!!!!
I was browsing the 007.com website and came across this wallpaper, and duh, its my wallpaper already. haha. just gotta bow down to daniel craig for being the luckiest man in the world for getting the main role, as the new bond. from a supporting actor in lara croft: tomb raider, to 007 James Bond.

If there were ever to be an Asian Bond ( which i doubt there will be), i'd definitely want to audition for it. haha. Dear readers, do you think i have what it takes? haha.
anyway, remember to catch 007 Quantum of Solace! Out in Cinemas 5th november ladies and
gentlemen (:

haha. okay okay, you can take a huge breath now, its the last photo already. Long post eh? well, my revival posts always are, because i've gotta let you guys in on what you've missed. haha.

Last photo!
This, is a photo-copied version of my official Confirmation slip for the O levels'. Its placed on my table with the sole purpose of bloody reminding me that i have this super long examintation that's never seem to gonna end. well, guess what? just chinese, pure lit, chem/phy paper 1 left to go biatch! haha. it feels like lifting those 20 kilos weight in the gym with the no. of reps at 15. the first few sets are okay, but when it hits the second and third, it drops from 15 to 10 to 8. haha. but at least i can finally rid this off my mind. and uh, the burn marks? i've been burning this stupid slip since the start of last week and everyday i've been burning small sections of it. Boy, i tell you when the last day comes, i'll just burn the entire thing and see its dissipate into smitherins!!! Muahahahaha. oh and on facebook i did mention that i would burn the real thing, but nah, i'm just gonna keep it with me. take it out one day and show it to my kids when they're sec 4, and tell them, your daddy went through the same hell, so stop complaining and start studying, daddy'll always be here for you no matter what results you get, so just make sure you try your best(est). haha.

i'll try taking a picture for you guys when its on fire on the last day, the 12th of November 2008. I can't wait!!

Well that's about it for now. FYI sec 4s/5s of BBSS that are going for the prom who come across this blog, i'll be posting in detail about an after-party for prom. so make sure you come back tomorrow or something, when i post the details. And spread the message too yeah.

ps: try to get permission for the party first if you seriously consider going. And uh, yeah, we'll party all night long don't worry (:

Thank you all for revisiting this blog after its death on the 7th of August 08! welcome back, and please come back again for future posts. (esp those interested in the party!)

ouch.

2008-08-07T21:25:00.001+08:00

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word – Elton John

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I gotta do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

Chorus:
It's sad, its so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
*Oh, it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

Chorus

What do I do to make you love me
What have I gotta do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me

What have I gotta do
What have I gotta do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

one post. one REALLY long post! haha (:

2008-07-28T23:37:00.005+08:00

YES!!! I'm finally posting AGAIN!!! (: haha!

Today's post shall cover what's been happening in my ever-changing life from the previous saturday, 19th july, till today, 28th july (:

1 freaking weak of not posting and now loads of people bug me for a post (: especially my queen! haha. Are my posts really that enjoyable to read? please leave your opinion on my tag yeah? stranger or anonymous also can, i'm pretty much fine with anything.

okay! let's get started, the first two pictures that are seen above. Yes! i've finally got my outstanding cadet award! which, as you can see from the date, was supposed to be given on the 31st of march. haha (: NCC never fails itself for its reputation for always being unable to carry out admin work on time (: but whatever the matter, i really wanna thank all the people who have been around me in NCC these four years, making it such a memorable four years! people like clarence, the five man team which consists of me, gary, sean, yien jun and ronald, and also the entire unit, i know we've been struggling like hell recently and performing like crap, but i promise you guys after the 56th cadet officer course, you guys will get the worst "tekaning"(punishing/torture) of your life (: and bring the bbss NCC land unit back where it was (: and also! Thank you so much the teachers-in-charge! (: mr mazlee, mr quek, mr chiew (who has already left bbss), mr nagulan, and the recently "knighted" mr nicholas lim! (: Thanks mr mazlee for never failing to over-exaggerate the honour i have attained upon receiving all my awards! (: your wonderful yet short powerful speeches will always remain in my heart (:

Many thanks to peers as well! for giving me everlasting support! people like clive, denise, alan of course!), the brothers. And thank you baby as well! (: for writing lovely letters for me for each day of the courses that i've been to (:

It has really been a pleasant journey in the NCC and its all thanks to you guys! (:

Okay! with that done, today, was pretty cool. We had 4 tests in total!! haha (:

amazingly guys, 3 of which were surprise tests. And thankfully out of 4, i think i did 3 relatively okay (: haha!

went to meet cheryl today! had lunch together! duck rice again! somehow it seems that whenever we have lunch there together, we always have funny things to chat about and bully each other with! haha (: and i'm sure you enjoy that too baby (: after heading over to cold storage to get a couple of things, i sent her home! (: and went to dad's place for a while. Played with ryan too! and the poor fella fell down while i was playing with him! haha (: guess how? he was running around in circles! and he fell! (: poor guy! had to carry him back into the house and wash his leg for him (: don't worry people, he's a strong, strong little dude, he's fine now (:

as for the photo above my cert and plaque, it shows the 200 bus i took this afternoon on the way home! (: the interior of it to be exact. And the reason why i took that photo is because obviously, it differs from the normal interior of a single-deck sbs bus don't you agree? haha. it even had a plasma/LCD screen on the left side of the picture, right in front of the lady, but it wasn't working though. and it was a NTU advertised bus, so i supposed the whole idea of redesigning the bus must have been theirs for some reason (:

okay, thats about all for today! shall move on to the previous days! (:

SUNDAY!/ Yesterday!

totally awesome day (: pretty relaxed at the same time (: played with ryan for most of the day (:

We went swimming at Caribbean (condominium ar guys, not the actual Caribbean), and had loads of fun with ryan! haha (: kept trying to teach/ persuade him to try swimming in the deep pool, which he actually could, with the aid of the swimming board that is (: Though eventually, he spent more time in the kids' pool. haha (: we went to sakuraya at the village centre for dinner! which explains the photo! (: tobbiko is supposedly FLYING fish roe(or egg) and not frying fish roe, unless there is such a breed of fish that apparently i'm not aware of! haha (: dinner was delish, fish was fresh, though it lacked a little bit of rice on my side (: went home after that and that was about it (:

SATURDAY!

Went out with Alan in the afternoon! we went out with the brothers for lunch at botak jones first though (: Sadly the food prices have increased slightly, and the extra fries are actually a dollar a plate when they were actually free flowing :( Sorry alan for touching on a sensitive issue there and i didn't mind you hitting me with the skateboard and all, just try and chill a little next time dude (: The two of us then headed down to suntec with one sole purpose and the purpose was to hunt for that remarkable joker poster. The one that has joker holding his card on the right hand and a dagger in the left. And his back was facing the camera. That, i have to say, is one totally GNHARLY poster!! (: and i paid it for alan first (: sadly we didnt have enough cash for the frame, so he's gonna get it some time soon (: enjoy the poster though bro (:

We seperated at outram and i headed to daddy's place, and when i got there we headed to vivo, where i was earlier taking a bus to his place.. haha (: we patronized no signboard seafood restaurant! (: the fried rice was good, chilli crab was, unique in its own way lar, not the usual one that i normally eat, vegetables was good. and uh, thats about all we ate lar (: BUT! but but but, the best part of the dinner was? DADDY LET ME DRINK BEER! and not just one can or a sip or two. But we shared 3 jugs of beer together! haha! and it was totally awesome getting a chance to drink with daddy. haha (: apparently he claimed, when i asked him how many jugs have we had, which he answered 3, and i awed, that this was just a piss in the ocean for him! (: haha. not something to be really proud of, but definitely cool in its own way (: glasses were chilled and the beer was icy cold. and it tasted superb! (: drank about 4-5 full glasses in total (: had a little giddiness from the alcohol but that was all (: Thanks daddy for that wonderful night! (: headed home after that where i went out around midnight to meet baby at her back gate for a while, and as i was a little tipsy, i fell off my bike while cycling and got a nasty wound on my shoulder. haha! (: but i'm okay now not to worry (:

Friday!

This is getting tiring.. i'm typing 3 times slower than i was yesterday.. haha (: but i shall persist on (: friday was CIP day again! (: which meant back to club 4 paws! (: And i intentionally left for the place earlier than the rest so i could spend some quality time with the dogs! (: and i got there at 130! haha (: just couldn't resist myself (: I got to play with the dogs alot more! (: and Sam was pretty busy with admin work so he was pretty much out of scene on that day (: It was okay though, with the prior experience we had last week we knew how to handle the dogs a little better (: and, I bathed quite a number of dogs this time (: There was goliath, buster, the drama queen, yoyo and patch! (: Had to sweep up the leaves as usual after that. But this week was kinda different because we got a chance to play with the dogs in their swimming pool! (: was so cool to see them swim. Out of all of them i'd say that patch swam the best (: goliath was big and clumsy! and it was so enjoyable to push his butt further into the pool just so he would swim (: Melee swam a few times too! (: and so did dumbo. but patch swam the most (: always going into the pool just because he wanted to get his donut shaped toy (:

Oh! almost forgot to mention, there was this particular dog that was super small in size (: the one that sat on irvin's lap and slept on my lap (: i didn't know her name, but apparently, she's a breast cancer survivor! (: She'd been the surgery to actually remove the tumor! (: Simply amazing isn't it?! (: the persistence of living in her just makes me feel all warm and cuddly inside (: will miss this little pooch as well! (:

And there was this particular shih-tzu that was extremely shy at first and ran away when i tried approaching it (: But after a little coaxing he finally got used to having us around him and even let us pet him! (: In fact it was yearning for attention! (: particularly from me somehow, i don't know why either but it did yearn attention from me! haha (: how adorable!

We'll miss sophie that's for sure! the ball obsessed jack russell whom i mentioned in the earlier post! (: and of course we played ball with her this time as well!! (:

Will miss you guys terribly!!!! (: i'll try dropping by on other fridays when i can okay? can't wait to goliath especially! the big clumsy giant (: hope you'll be much bigger the next time i see you ! (: till then, you'll live strong in my heart guys (:

here's.. buster!! (:
irvin and that little pooch, can't remember its name though (:
buster/ goliath/ yoyo and SOPHIE!! (:
YOYO! he's actually much bigger but somehow in the picture he looks terribly small! he's a 2 year old labrador, so he's actually pretty big already! (:
Patch!! (: and his "emo" position. haha!
And here's the little pooch asleep on my lap! (:

Tuesday! (i think)

It was racial harmony day! (: and BBSS celebrated by wearing ethnic costumes to school! (: I didn't wear any actually, i was just borrowing elliot's ethnic top which is actually youveraj's one! (: but anyway it was pretty cool because it was the first time i actually wore an ethnic piece of clothing! (: there wasn't much that happened, just that i wanted to post this photo! (:

From left: Claire! Me! and Wy-Lin! (:

Previous sunday! (: 20th july!

Had a great time at Vivo!! (: went to GV to watch red cliff with daddy and sis! (: Was pretty delighted when daddy booked gold class because it was to be my first time in there! and i still remember about him promising to bring me to watch a gold class movie sometime in primary 3 i think (: well done daddy! you didn't break your promise (:

The Lounge itself was pretty glamourous already! (: and most definitely, the seats were awesome (: they were electronically declinable and it was a super wide chair for just one person! (: Couples if you wanna watch a gold class movie here's a point to take, book last rows only! because its impossible to kiss or whatever without anyone seeing even if you are a the side, because the two seats are actually seperated (:

They gave blankets! And i was sitting alone, while daddy and sis sat behind me (: The food was awesome as well! the wings, and the nachos! (: which were actually served with a blue potato nachos as well! with loads of dips like cheese (definite must have), avocado, salsa, and whipped cheese! (: only the cheese was given in a larger amount though, the rest were pathetically little (: And for the calculative people, if you plan on watching gold class and the only money you wish to spend excessively on is the 30 dollar ticket, i'd seriously suggest that you bring in food from either outside the lounge but still within GV, or literally go to giant to get food and drinks. One stupid coke costs $4.90!!! haha. So you can get a rough idea of what kinda prices they charge (: Hope these tips will help you guys! overall the experience was really really comfy and cosy (: Did wish terribly that i had you baby, by my side. That empty seat beside me just made it unbearble to look at (:

As for the movie, loved the action scenes. Though daddy said that too much of the movie was censored, because there were to be intimate love and slightly gorrish scenes, and i felt that the love scenes were actually rather pathetic. The sad thing is that i didn't know that red cliff was just a production of the entire story! and when the end of the movie said to be continued i was totally constipated you could say. haha! but overall the action was pretty cool. all the formations of troops and stuff (: Chinese-history/war fighting/strategies on war enthusiasts should catch the movie (: not the kids though because they won't get anything that the movie is saying (: Guan Yu's face could have been a little redder though! haha! (:

Anyway, hope you liked the review of the gold class cinema and the movie (: hopefully it'll help you prepare yourself if you're gonna burn a hole in your wallet for a girlfriend or someone special eh? (: enjoy! (:

GOLD!
Yup its me alright. and i know i'm too tanned.. haha
nice wide seats!
with a side table as well! (:
Sis and daddy! (:
a rough look of what its like inside (:
here are the tix! (:

Saturday!

YES!!

I'm finally coming to the end of this post! (:

Saturday started of pretty okay, with a local michael jackson on the mrt!!! can you spot him??? haha (: was really entertaining seeing him and the faces of people as he entered the train. Good job mj (:

This is to be a short post because things went kinda downhill. But nevertheless! things are back to normal now, actually since the movie day it has been okay! (: so don't have to worry guys, we're smooth sailing now (:
he's not that difficult to spot is he? haha! (:

Okay! i've finally come to the end of my post! hope you've enjoyed reading this super long post! (: and uh, FYI cheryl and I are to be together for one year on the first of august! thank you wylin for complimenting me on my idea for the present! (: i really hope you'll like it baby! (: will reveal to you guys what it is on the actual day alright? till then people (: thanks for dropping by! and feel free to express your opinion in anyway you want on my tagboard! (: have a great week ahead people! bye! (:

BEAUTIFUL DAY TODAY!

2008-07-18T22:13:00.004+08:00

Debbie / Patricia / Jia Xun and GOLIATH! (:
Here we have brownie on the left, and i don't know the name of the one on the right, but i call her lamb! because she most definitely looks like one (:
Flapper! (: really cute fella that portrays this natural posture when he was waiting for the ball to be thrown. totally awesome (:
off he goes! chasing the maroon ball on the mid left of the photo (:
HERE'S MAX!!! the lucky labrador that got hand-bathed, by me! (:
Not forgetting the 2 dashing gentlemen, elliot on the left, irvin on the right, and not forgetting sweet sophie in the middle! with an unstoppable obsession with TOY balls (: missing your company already sweetheart! (:
And last but not least, PATCH! (: sweet old patch, always by sophie's side (:

NOW today has got to be one of the most happiest day over the recent weeks.

started off the day with a bang!

I got my n76 back! Sweet sweet n76, which meant, i can finally listen to music! on headphones? and not blast it out loud on public transport like some hooligan that has no social consciousness (: sorry haqiz, though i doubt you'd read my blog. haha! (: if i do find my n80 battery, promise you will lend you either phone yeah? feeling really terrible for taking the phone away lar. haha (:

and uh, got to school on time (: WHILE! happily listening to music and the same time! i finally have the soundtrack of my life back again! (:

Things were pretty smooth going in school, nothing much happened (:

Oh oh, Ralph Sore Kenneth hit my with my own newspaper sword though, and it hurt really bad! haha! i love my newspaper sword (: Note to all: newspapers wield more power than you can ever imagine. HAHA!

left school and was walking alone to rodalink nearby for a while (: Was totally ogling at road bikes!! polygon's got pretty new bikes, but polygon will still remain as polygon, the $10 rental bike at east coast. haha (: learnt a lot from the shop assistant though, taught me a few things about road bikes! thanks so much dude, feel much more enlightened now (:

Realized it was late! and had no choice but to cab down to the wonderful dog-care centre for CIP! (: apparently i arrived too early and saw irvin and debbie walking over to debbie's place as she wanted to go home to take a bath. debbie's dad is totally radical! because he has a simple stereo setup in his living room! awesome speakers with linking bi-wires pumped by a beautiful audiolab stereo amp and an awesome power amp. All finished off with a marantz cd player. PERFECT! something i wish i had (: though my set-up ain't that bad. haha. but it is something i yearn for (: i do have a turntable though! (: anyway, thank you debbie for letting me try out your audio system! (:

We soon headed off to the dog-care centre where we got briefed briefly by sam, one of the dudes in charge there. We had soooooo much fun! (: We cleaned dog poop at first, that wasn't that awesome but at least we were doing our job (: and i didn't really mind actually to be honest. After we were done, we played with all the dogs! (: there were like, over 1o dogs? yeah you can imagine how fun that musta been! We all loved sophie! the ball obsessed jack russell who just loved chasing the tennis ball we threw to her! and she'd simply bring it back to you and she'll sit between your legs and await the next throw. AWESOME dog! (:

There was also momo! whom which i didn't get to take a picture of sadly! he's a HUGE husky! (: nearing 2 years old but still, HUGE! (: and uh, there was this dog, can't remember its name or breed, that constantly got in and out of the time out area! (: finally it got sent into a small little cage where it was really left alone for a time-out (: that spunk's got too much going on sometimes, always bullying the little adorable wolf-dog! (:

Soon, we got a chance to try out bathing dogs! Sam was great at explaining the vital details on washing a dog, and i suppose after washing max, i'm more or less "certified" already! haha (: great advice from sam though, thanks! (: Now Max must have been totally enjoying himself while i scrubbed and massaged him during his bath! He even tangled me with his leash, so much so that i got stuck and that to push him so that he'd reverse! haha! (: kinda miss Max now, that little labrador (:

Oh i almost forgot, there's a pool at the dog-care centre specifically designed for dogs! didn't get a picture of it, but will get it next week (: IT'S TOTALLY GNARLY!!! (:

after settling down, we got back to some household chores again. i swept up leaves that were on the floor, while irvin and i took turns to rake leaves on the grass as well. (: i think i did a pretty good job of clearing the leaf litter! (: and thank you debbie and patricia for helping me dump the leaves into the rubbish bags (: as we were doing so, irvin did a bit of mopping as well, so did elliot and jiaxun! (: and throughout the whole process of cleaning up the leaves, sweet, sweet sophie kept me company too! she was the only dog left running about for some reason, while the rest were kept in a little area (:

After that ordeal, we were pretty shagged already! haha (: we ended up just slacking around playing with the dogs again (: we left at about 7 after a short debrief and Q&A by sam. Really enjoyed myself there today! (: so glad that we can do it again next friday! (:

After leaving, patricia headed home and the remaining of us headed to lot 1 for dinner at kfc. WAS STARVING AND DEHYDRATING CAN? haha! didn't have lunch lar. but at least i did have something for recess (: the three guys downed their food at an unbelievable pace! i upsized my pepsi to a large one! which really satisfied my thirst, and irvin had a large mash potato! unbelievably dude, you're still lean man! its like you can never get fat man. haha! (:

3 guys headed home after that. girls were hanging at lot 1 for a while i think. while irvin and elliot got off at bukit batok i went home. and am now here posting!! (: well, thats about it for today! hope you've enjoyed reading! thanks for dropping by people! (:

to BABY!: so sorry couldn't spend time with you today, and you have to end up rotting at home! haha (: hope you understand that i have to complete my cip okay? sorry that i can't spend next friday with you as well. feel so bad lar :( but i'll try to meet you as and when we're both free and can meet each other next week okay? and hopefully we'll meet tomorrow as well! (: take care baby! byebye! (:

Updates! like.. finally

2008-07-17T23:00:00.003+08:00

shades on me!
shades on her! (:
on me once again (:

okay people, sorry for the super duper duper super long delay of my new post. haha (:

been too busy lately with life and all the "joys" it has to offer (:

okay since i'm listening to nice music and it has a pretty good rhythm with it, this shall be a happy post. haha.

lets see.. events events events.. uh... the furthest i can remember is... wah i really can't remember man..

okay, the photos you see were take when my sweetheart cheryl and i went to vivo! i think it was this week.. yet again i can't remember! haha. Cool shades right?? don't worry they're not mine, i got them for cheryl from tangs! for around 17 bucks? yeah around there lah..

fast forward >>

(sorry ar people i really have short term memory, can't really remember what happened over the past few days. too many things already. haha (: )

haha, hmmm seems like my baby's having problem with her laptop again. haha! seeing her msn picture popping up every few seconds (:

well, today was okay. Had two freaking tests of which both i completely did not study for. haha (: i wish i did though. was too occupied with math homework last night. Went to meet up with cheryl after school! We're kinda poor today so we went to kopitiam for lunch. haha (: she had delicious honey chicken rice, which i thought was tasty (thats why i said delicious), though there was a little too much gravy. haha (: and i had hor fun! and we shared a bowl of fishball soup as well, because my little princess wanted soup! (: she ate lesser fish balls than me of course. haha (: was about to explode when i finished all the food ( including cheryl's!) haha (: went to get curry puffs cos she wanted to eat at home, and we headed home after that. Couldn't send her to the gate today though, how sad, i think i have yet to send her to her gate this week, and i doubt i will. haha! (: anyway, baby's still got a bit of cough/phlegm, so get well soon baby! drink gallons of water okay? (: must listen to boyfriend ar! :P

moving on to the slighty sadder part of the story:

I'm sorry baby i really can't get the thought, about our future, out of my mind. I'd really be so heartbroken to let there come a day where because of our religious backgrounds, we'd have to go our separate ways. To readers, i know it seems far-fetched, my thinking, but i'd really hate to know that after being together for so long, we'd separate because of something that i knew deep down, would cause this. I can't bear watching you in hurt, more over, in the future. I love you so much that i'd do anything to minimize or at least relieve you of as much hurt as i can. I hope you understand baby. It really means a lot to me, our relationship now, and our relationship in the future. I do want to spend more years of my life with you, but then again, if its at the cost of your heart being wrecked beyond recognition, i'll give up my selfish wants for you. I'll do whatever thats possible for you.

hope this kinda clears things up a bit. (:

youth day! and today

2008-07-08T22:03:00.005+08:00

WELL AIN'T THIS SWEET!!!!

well! had an enjoyable youth day with my darling cheryl! haha (:

we had breakfast with alan (aka CB) and hillary at BK! (: apparently cheryl and I got there earlier and we were the ones staying further. haha! each couple had one meal each, probably the lack of appetite, i was and still am having tonsilitis. (is that how you spell it? correct me if i'm wrong thanks (: )

After breakfast we headed over to my place, VIA CAB again! because the princess has lazy lazy feet! haha (: kinda thankful for her sometimes actually, saves me the walking too :P

got to my place and we watched Sports Movie and Fool's Gold. Sports movie was kinda hilarious yet boring at the same time. fool's gold is pretty cool though (:

used the computer for a while and we watched a crappy episode of incredible tales on mobtv. haha!

I cooked maggie me for my princess! she ordered 5 hot dogs along, of which 5 she ate like, 2. haha! i cooked some vegetarian instant noodle for myself as well cos her noodles were making me hungry (:

aiyoooh... okay while i'm posting i'm chatting to loads of people so i'm kinda lazy to post now. haha (:

will let you see a few photos she and i took and the end of this post alright? (:

well, youth day's night sucked. don't wanna talk about it, but it just sucked to the core.

as for today! today was, okay okay. i got 17+1 for physics test (: BEAT YOU ALAN!

HAHAHAHAHAHA! okay lar but his A maths beat me thats for sure. haha (:

ROSEMARY WAS A BITCH!

(rosemary is our social studies workshop trainer)

haha, yeah i let it out (: she was really sweet at first though, seemed like another passionate teacher with all her love for students! Well, seems like you can't judge a book by its cover. Congrats rosemary you just screwed you perfect image that the class had of you. goodbye.

spent the after school hours with baby for a bit! had lunch at vivo and we headed back home!

i sent her home! and headed back home for dinner and tuition.

Just a note for all:

Cheryl and I, are getting married!

YEAH RIGHT!..

haha, no lar, just wanna tell everyone that we're back on track already (: things have been more or less stabilized (: thanks to all those for the support (: and i'm sure we'll break through the one year barrier with ease! (: I love you baby! (:

thank you brenda as well! for your unwavering support and your oh-so-sweet letter and kit kat! (: love the letter as well! really touched by your kind deed (: always know that i'm there when you need me too old pal! (:

HERE ARE THE PHOTOS! (:

okay fine the photos are at the top. haha (: enjoy!

updating you (:

2008-07-05T23:42:00.002+08:00

the party went smoothly, mummy didn't find out, and we had a great time! (:
Hope you liked your bag ryan!!!
and don't forget to thank cheryl jie jie for the minature taxi as well!

and thank you baby for shopping with me for his present!!! (:
don't owe you a cake anymore because i already got you one! the dry, makes you drink lots of water mudpie cake from coffee bean :P

i managed to take a beautiful family portrait, i don't have it in daddy's computer though, so i'll post it some other day (:

daddy TOTALLY overordered!!!
okay there were 7 adults and 7 kids!

total, 3 families lar okay?

this is what he ordered:

2 large canadian pizzas
20piece kfc chicken
1 large and 3 medium whipped potato 1 large and 3 medium coleslaw
4 big macs
4 filet o'fish
4 large cokes
4 large fries

yeah i think thats about it.

haha! but that's daddy for you lar.
his excuse?
i'd rather overbuy than underbuy so there won't be a scenario where there is only one piece left and someone have to give in to another person for that piece. haha!
love you daddy (:

as for friday, spent the after with cheryl!
as usual, walked over fron tiong bahru plaza to her school and waited for her at the bustop.
had lunch at kopitiam! woohoo! love to eat there now (: big burden off our wallets :P
do miss sushi tei though, miss the taste and all...
she had her don as usual! almost finished it!! the next time you shall finish it yourself baby! :P
i had hor fun! really tasty, and its served in the cute little wok (: the gravy was delish and the egg white was silky! (: shall have that again the next time (:

met her bestie at exactly where baby predicted she would be. (my baby's a psychic! :P )
passed her the book and we walked around a while more.
We got fool's gold and something else, can't remember the title. but they're both NC16! and we're totally legal to watch it. cept for dorcas! haha! sorry ar dorcas, cheryl bully you until influence me already. haha (:

and we shall watch it on monday! youth day! (: and baby shall not give me false hope! :P

as for saturday,
its been a really boring saturday, totally rotted today (:
got SOMETHING for alan, the CB!!!
haha! (cb is referred to something other than the hokkien vulgarity, fyi (: )
went over to daddy's place after that (:
and i went to cold storage not long ago (:
got baby japanese biscuits! (:

that's about all for now.
shall post again soon.
thanks all supporters who have tagged! (:
love you guys.
love cheryl MOST! :P

life's greatness

2008-07-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

tomorrow, 3rd of july, is ryan's fourth birthday.

4 years old, close to a metre in height.

my little monster brother.

i was supposed to have tuition, told ying ling ( my wonderful tutor), that my bro's birthday was tomorrow, so had to reschedule, she was okay with it.

but, what to tell mummy?

i'm going for my little brother's party?

and she'll be like: i told you to stay away from that bastard right?

well, that's what you get when you live a split life.

actually, more than that. Much much more.

you get a mum, and a dad. you get love from both, you get care from both. you get advice from both.

this is what i get. i get, all of the above, and, meaningless family photos. hatred. mental torment. hurt. and every other saddening emotion you can think of.

i'm trying so hard, to get rid of the f9 logo printed on me. to study harder. to love more. to appreciate more. to be the best for every god damn thing.

the best boyfriend,

the best son,

the best educated,

the best guy,

the best friend.

i've achieved none.

here's why i've failed.

i can never seem to keep her happy 100%, i end up spoiling her mood.

this son has 2 sides to live to a 100%, so its a total of 200%, 5 days a week i spend with mummy, 1 and a 1/2 days with daddy. Being so preoccupied with everything else, i can't be the best.

with this kind of shit scores i'm getting, i ain't going nowhere. i keep telling myself to study, make mummy and daddy proud, but i'm doing worse. far worse.

i've got every shit flaw that you can think of.

i've told the guys i'd try my best to but i'm only trying like 50% of the time.

is it i'm expecting too much of myself?

no no, no way. everyone else can be the best at least one of it, why can't i?

because i'm a hopeless, useless, motherfucking bum thats why.

sucking up the air that should be given to others.

shorterning people's life by taking away their time.

you know what, i dont know where's this post going.

i love her so much. i really don't know if i'm doing anything wrong. i wish i knew if i did. now she's damned pissed with me. and i don't know what to do to please her anymore

i don't know what to do anymore

emo? nope, just reality

2008-06-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

i can never make anyone happy in my life.

even if it were possible, it would be a short phase

like a cobbler fixing a wobbly shoe, or having plastic surgery on your face.

typing my blog in the darkness, and the song that's playing on my blog.

i like the dark now, its mysterious, which is the reason why its safe.

while many fear it i embrace with every drop of blood in my system.

the air conditioning is set to a low 16 degrees celsius, but body feels like its on fire now.

hallelujah to the wholesome families out there. treasure the love that is there. if its fading, salvage it, salvage it before it dissolves in front of your very own eyes. Do something about it, make a difference, not to stand out, but to lead. lead the rest out of the darkness. i'll stay here, in the nice, cold dark room of four corners. i'll watch your every move, i'll see every problem that lies in every soul that has lost love. i'll look for it for you, don't worry about me. helping you is what shall do, what i will do, and what i'm made to do.

love is all around, maybe its covered by a cloud of dust. blow it away, make it warm, like a home made apple pie full of loving warmth.

rationing my breaths? nah, i'll take every god damn breath i want. i've been trying so hard, but who cares? you think living life is about the happy moments? well, you idiots have failed maths, much worse than the f9s that i walk around with. calculate the number of happy moments over the sad moments. i assure you you will never in your life achieve an improper fractions, because forever will the top be smaller than the bottom. woohoo, i can count.

going over every weekend, when the other fades into another world.

i love my half-brother, he is a bastard to my biological mother.

i carried him in the rain, ran as fast as i could. we went to get ice cream from shell station because he wanted ice cream. it was pouring, i took of my shirt to cover his head and used another plastic bag to cover his head. thank goodness he was dry and didn't fall sick.

i love you ryan, i know its hard for you to understand now, but i assure you, i'll be by your very side fighting against this cruel world we are forced to face. never will i leave your side. we shall go to war together like real men. 16 year old, and 4 year old. with your pure innocence, and my tortured soul. life's gonna be much tougher for you when you're my age next time. i know it will be. but never worry, i'm here for you brother, fuck the half bloodedness. we share the same blood for all the fuck i care. i'll be there for you. i promise i will be.

mummy, i know its tough facing this world without love. perhaps some god up there will be kind enough to send an angel down beside you. i won't mind you having another husband. if its what would really make you happy, make you not worry so much. make you a better person. its okay mummy, everyone needs love from a particular someone, even i do. i forgive you for calling ryan a bastard, perhaps someday you will come to an understanding too, that it was never his fault he was brought into this world, but now that he's here, i have no choice but to protect his soul. and i will fight against any daring soul to the last drop of blood if i have to. thank you mummy for your everlasting support, but my life's too complicated to make simple sometimes, i hope one day you will understand.

jiejie, grandma would really love to see you, do come over more often, we'd all love to see that smile on that pretty face more often. your beauty is in who you are sister, in every thing you do. we've fought many times, but to come to an understanding one day, and laugh to ourselves about our sillylessness. thanks for giving such a feminine touch to my life, making me a more gentlemanly person and teaching me about things in life thats given me a head start at races in life.

grandma, haha, you can't even understand english. but what the heck. your love for your son and your grandson have been everlasting. your persistence in the hell house has been worshipable. i will never forget the day you left lakepoint condominium when i was primary 2. no worries grandma, i will look after myself. you have to promise you do too. thanks for all the birthday noodles, i love you.

yo daddyo! the most respectable man in my life. for all the mistakes that you've made and all the times you've been an asshole of a man. i still love you, i still forgive you. thank you so much for sticking around us. i know its not easy to work your job, but if one day you give it up for something less stressful, with a lower pay, and we lose our wealth, i won't mind daddy, its okay. i can live without everything except a happy father. thank you for all your inspirational talks. i know you've wanted to see good results, but i'm sorry for the red underlines. i just can't help but hover over the problems that we're in right now. i fear that if i don't do anything about it, it'll be too late next time. you dad, is the one man who has impacted my life, be in good or bad ways. but i'm still appreciative for it. thanks for giving me your everlasting support. sorry if i was the reason you got wealthy and made you make the wrong decisions you did in your life. sorry daddy. thanks for everything.

cheryl, haha, isn't that a lovely name? who'd thought i'd actually fall in love with you even when i knew so little about you? thank you for all the beautiful times over the past 10++ months. I really wish you'd let me help you sometimes, i know baby, your soul is still pure. untouched. but we've grown up now, and its time you learnt things about reality, for you'll be even more hurt if you're unable to cope next time. I do wish sometimes you'd be more affectionate though, but i know there are some things i just can't change about you. but things that have to change, have to change. baby, i love you so much, that i want to do anything in my will to make you a better someone, and sorry if i get irritated sometimes, but i'd hope you'd trust me a bit more okay? what you said yesterday did break my heart. it shattered every piece of it. but i forgive you baby, and i hope you too will treat me with love and forgiveness. i'll forgive you for every mistake you do baby. i remember you told me once about how it was good that i reflected, but do reflect yourself as well after a quarrel okay? i know sometimes its my fault, but like i've been saying a long time ago, it takes two to clap. i'd love to hear you apologise more, but only if you've come to realise how much i've done for you okay? and how much you've overlooked at all the small details. i love you cheryl chu, god i love you sooooo much i can't bear to ever let you go. it hurts sometimes to hear the truth, i know, but if its to make you a better person baby, i have no choice but to do so. i'm sorry. i do hope you do some soul-searching as i have done many times in thinking of anything that i've overlooked what you've done for me. about the times i try my very best to meet you, why i want to meet you, about waiting, at times, hours on ends, about how i try every time, to try my very best to be your sole companion in the wee hours of the morning. i hope you do baby, i love you. thank you for everything that you've done for me baby, all the kisses, all the letters, presents, lunches, times. thank you baby.

no title.

2008-06-24T23:33:00.001+08:00

stupid, boring day at school.

managed to do a maths homework in class today, totally awesome (:

lit was, kinda fun. Latiff told us about his lovely trip to some offshore island during the hols.

said something really true, about how he plans to spend as much time with his kids as possible before they grow old and give excuses not to tag along for family outings (:

basketball was, fun?

i realize our game is getting rougher. kinda like playing american football!

i have 2 injuries today!

one on the arm, because i tried blocking him and and kena his elbow (:

another wonderful from irvin when he was trying to layout and took my leg for the floor.

it's kinda swollen, but it should go down soon lah.

seems like i have nothing much to blog about today.

sorry about the boring post people.

and uh, i got something from cheers for alan.

now he owes me one! (:

okay thats about it, take care people.

shall post again tomorrow (:

first glance at the lovely couple (:

2008-06-23T23:19:00.001+08:00

you should know who the couple is (:

GREEN DUCK MEAT! (:

2008-06-23T22:30:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODAY!!

loads of stuff happened over the past few weeks of which i have posted.

At least i'm making a few people happy because this post is a happy post! (ppl/burdens like alan for example. haha! )

we had a chalet last weds to friday! pretty cool. The brothers were there except for the yangster, hopefully he'll make it for the year end's one (: And uh, cheryl's friends were there too! More guys stayed over for the first day though. We had loads of fun bbqing. Thanks mervyn for entertaining me while we attempted desperately to start a fire with pathetic charcoal chips (: Bbq was pretty much a success though, guys did all the cooking and we had a real good time cooking stuff (: we made the corns golden yellow, made the chicken pretty we cooked, and the prawns, (after baby's review), completely RED! (:

we had three bottles of hard liquor which included smirnoff's no.21 triple distilled vodka, a one litre absolute vodka (generously donated by kitmun) and a bacardi superior! (: It was a pretty sucky first attempt at being a bar tender, but it was pretty fun i have to say (: we forgot to get the juices we needed for many of the drinks, so we headed down to cheers at about 1230mn to get the juices. The brothers had a totally awesome time walking to and fro cheers. Walked past old changi hospital and we spooked ourselves with stories while jia hao was showing me his goosebumped skin (:

Things kinda got outta hand during our arrival. not the brothers though don't worry. haha. and i'm sorry i unknowingly made you feel like crap baby, i assure you it shall never happen again (: and never shall your eyes be filled with candy! :P

as things settled down, brothers - alan = 7 brothers because alan went home for he had a trip to genting the next day, we played a number guessing with alcohol. i had 5 shots in total, got me a wee bit tipsy. i know yihan got the most. haha! As we finished the last few drops of alcohol i could feel the bonds between us, sounds kinda gay but, we are brothers for life (:

we left the room when we emptied the bottles (: uh, this part nothing much happened, i went to take a bath, brushed my teeth, and KOed on the bed in room 3 because i was too tired. sorry i didn't keep you company baby on the first night baby.

The guys and cheryl's first batch of schoolmates left first about noon.

we had a totally cool 3 hours for ourselves before her church friends arrived! (:

haha, but because of my baby's exhausted self, i told her i'd take care of the mopping of the floor, packing of the room and the sofas, etc. she soon fell asleep on the bed in room 1 and i was left battling household chores. haha! diana soon smsed cheryl, but because i saw how sweet she was asleep, i decided to help cheryl with the smsing so she could nap more (: in the end she napped a cool 1hr plus and i still managed to get diana to the right chalet and packed the entire chalet! (:

The second bbq was tiring as well, diana should know. i was fanning the fire like crazy, i even cut myself doing so (: wasn't until i opened another bag of charcoal (dejavu like the first day) and i got the large pieces of charcoal! (: managed to start the fire after that. Thank you diana for entertaining me and talking to me while i was trying super hard to start the fire (:

Though its kinda like the second time we talked, felt pretty comfortable around diana, like she's someone that's fun to talk to (: and thick-skinned as well! (: she bbqed along with me and i complimented her the whole night about her cooking perfect drumlets. haha! (:

later at night we watched run papa run! few managed to survive the entire movie, i'm sure people missed parts of the movie. and WOOHOO! (: i got to lie beside baby while watching the movie! (: she was falling asleep too though. and i had to sacrifice my bed for the other girls to sleep on, so i didn't get to sleep beside baby sadly, maybe during the year end chalet perhaps?

The next day we packed our stuff and set off for home (: baby and i took bus 10 all the way home! (: sorry i couldn't send you all the way to your back gate baby (:

okay, thats about it for the chalet.

wahhh.. now i'm super lazy to type about things that happened today. haha, but i shall try (:

school SUCKED. i bet even baby agrees (:

freaking 720-1600. Like.... WTH WTF WFTJEFIGOJEHNIONOT MAN!!!!

but! but but but, i still managed to persuade baby, despite how much she was trying to stop me the last night, ( which ended in a not so nice good night), to let me meet her! she's so sweet, she didn't want me to meet her because of the taxi fare and about troubling me to come down just to meet her for such a short while.

but to be honest baby, i truly am, willing to spend and do anything i can to make you happy, and never should you feel guilt from it, because seeing you happy is worth anything that i sacrifice understand? (: I don't mind taking taxis three-four times a week just to see you, but making you smile cheek to cheek during lunch just now made it all worth while darling. i have never seen you smiled so sweetly over lunch with me before, it really was a first in 10++ months (: and everyone! i made her eat cucumber! aka crunchy, green duck meat! that's what i said it was in order to spite her (: yes yes, it was her first time eating cucumber! for those of you that just gave the computer screen a whatever look, there's a first for everything hor, so take that look back.

as i was saying, we had a great time today having duck rice at one of the shophouses near our place! (: we then headed to cold storage where we got biscuits, mentos and herworld but failed to get our main item, honey baked ham! perhaps during the next time we meet alright baby? (:

here's to all those couple's out there who are on a rocky road right now, especially bbssians who are affected by the extended hours of lessons!

yes it does seem that friday may be the only day that really provides the time for us to meet, (ps: she's prohibited from going out with me on saturdays) and yes i hated knowing the fact that i could only have her in my arms once a week, but with enough love guys, you can change things. no matter how much either party may hesitate, always take in a good stride, that they are doing it for you, and try even harder to sacrifice all that you can! don't neglect your studies though, they are important too! okay that's about all for today, a really really long post

many thanks to baby for helping me link all the new people! (: have fun reading guys

have a great day, do come to check for new posts! (:

the irony

2008-06-04T01:26:00.003+08:00

hey everyone. Yes its been a freaking long time.

i just read my ' jie's ' blog since i saw a blog link on her msn nick.

her post was sweet yet sour. it was lovely yes heartwrenching to read. well, there's always two sides of a story i guess.

just in case you're wondering, here's the link: http://the-airpork.blogspot.com/

just gotta love the song on her blog. and yes i'm "sharing" the file now. haha.

hey cool, there's a beetle in front of my keyboard.

either that or its dead.

Its feels cold tonight. No its not the cold wind, my blood feels cold.

Baby isn't her normal self today, anyway, cheer up baby! don't be so upset already okay?

its making me feel really bad for not being able to do anything.

i'm so sorry.

you know, people tell me,

that cheryl's a little princess,

well, i've finally come up with a response for you guys (:

i love cheryl, whether its right or wrong.

its affecting my results

its taking up a lot of my time

i give in too much for her

i pamper her too much.

yes i know all these.

perhaps, i'm trying to seek love till fill up the lost section of my heart in my life.

but i need it, to live and love on another day.

even if it means all this.

i don't want to lose her, neither do i want to break her heart.

she can take everything from me, but as long as she loves and cares for me the way you'd feel

when your mum and dad tell you they love you.

they do tell me they love me, but

its just not the same as a family living under one roof.

i'm thankful for cheryl, for her stubborness,

her imperfections,

her unreasonable decisions at times (everyone does this, so don't point fingers at others because

you know there are 3 pointing straight back at you)

she's perfect the way she is.

she's the one i love and cherish the most,

she's the one that fills up the empty space in my arms.

puppy love? so what if it is, its still love.

love, something thats lacking in this world of ours.

don't take for granted what you have.

expect nothing more than everything that you have less.

thank you baby

for being by me when you are by me.

for giving me an extra source of love.

we'll have many more problems to come, it'll take sleepless nights and teary eyes,

but we'll try together won't we?

cool the beetle's alive. its turned 45 degress to the right and its almost directly facing me.

thank you baby for telling me about daddy, sorry i shouldn't have got irritated with you

telling me that he was swearing while he was drunk. just isn't nice to hear about your dad

doing something like that, hope you understand that i too, fail to hold in my feelings

sometimes.

yes yes, apparently daddy got drunk. i hope everything's okay at home. damn i'm tearing.

but at least he gets drunk less often nowadays, and he's smoke free! (: broking sucks now

because of the market. Oil prices go up, buyers are afraid to buy because they fear it

might fall after they buy, and lose money. Sellers are afaid to sell, because they're afraid

prices would go up even higher after they sell. So, the market's coming to a standstill,

but like what daddy said, it all goes in a cycle. Hopefully it turns back soon. Hold on tight

daddyo, we'll carry the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow back home together (:

You know unruly students in school, with attitude problems, etc. They and even teachers and

counsellors claim its because of family problems. Well, this is what daddy told me, this (our

wrecked family) has nothing to do with you, just focus on your studies. I can't blame him,

he went through life spending so little time with his dad, my grandpa. apparently grandpa

would go to work so early in the morning and come back so late in the night that daddy

barely had time to see him. Dad told me of how he remembered the one night, that

grandpa had finally saved enough money to buy a brand new radio. Yup, a radio. He

told me how he was awake when he saw grandpa testing it out the night he brought it home.

Family problems are the cause of all these? i don't think so. They're just excuses. We're

getting older, and its time we learnt to adapt and survive ourselves. Though it does hurt

badly inside sometimes when you think deep about the crap of a family i'm in. But i'm

thankful daddy still sticks around, and thankful for my half-brother, ryan. The little

bugger's full of joy. and thankful for mummy for bringing me up (:

People around me know me, as pro-active, enthusiastic even in the most impossible situations

the entertaining guy in class, the rich-man's son, the one who has the looks, the money, the

everything. Well, yes i was born into this world with all these. But at a price, and i'm sure

this post has enlightened many of you whom know nothing about my family background.

Should men cry? even if they shouldn't, i do. I cry at night. When everyone's asleep,

i know mummy cries too, but she does it like me, quietly. I know grandma, big sis, daddyo,

they all do feel the hurt too. Not many have seen me tear. Only the fellow family members.

many would be shocked to know a strong figure like me can actually tear, to actually

feel that gut and throat wrenching feeling when you cry your heart out.

It pains me to know how i have been failing at so many things in my life.

The numerous attempts i try to make people around me be proud of me, to make them worry

less about me, to make their day and put smiles on their faces. Cheryl, Daddy, Mummy, Big sis,

Grandma, Ryan and everyone else. Everytime i fail, there is no one else to place the blame

on but myself. For all the times i've failed and ended up making things worse. I'm sorry for

ruining your days all the times i did. but i really hope you know, i'm not doing it

intentionally, sometimes i'm like you, i'm human too, i too need a break at times, and i'm

really sorry for being unable to live up to your expectations. i'm really sorry.

this post is long enough.

sorry for such a saddening post people. have a nice day though. time to wash my face and

eyes. take care now, i'll post again soon.

just for fun (:

2008-04-16T23:20:00.001+08:00

76 words

Speedtest

yay! i got 76 words per minute! (: sadly i think my personal best was 8X (:

nothing much to post cos i'm lazy. sorry. post some other time people. bye! (:

HELLO WORLD! I'M BACK! (:

2008-04-09T22:10:00.003+08:00

WEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

after days and days of pestering, it has finally come down to this. me posting again, and once again bringing this dust-covered blog back to life. feel like an undertaker or something man. haha!

anyways! down to business! i shall post the events that have occurred from yesterday till today. Simply because my memory stretches no further than that (:

Tuesday

school, hmmmmmmmm, well school was school. i bet you people are more interested in what happened after anyways ( so am i), i went over to cheryl's!!!! she was sick though, thats why she was home the whole day ( except visiting the doctor). anyways! after such a long long long long long long long ( really long lar okay? you get the point) time, I'm finally permitted to step into her room again! HOOORAAAYYYY!!!! she was soooo sweet you know??? she packed up her room and even brought up an inflatable mattress just for me! thank you so much baby! I really appreciated it! (: It was so awesome to feel your warmth once again beside me! and to do my favourite thing, lying on a bed, and having you just by my side! (: everything seemed like it stopped moving, it was just you, me and that priceless moment! i was pretty delighted time wasn't passing that fast so i could spend more time with you! anyway, we really enjoyed having each other in each other's arms (i'm sure you liked that right baby? :P ) and nothing ever feels better than having your loved one warmly tucked into your arms (: i left at about 445 and it started drizzling when i left. but the good news is! she gave me a sweet sweet kiss before i left! so touching right?? of course lar, my girlfriend leh, what do you expect?? haha! (: man do i love my girlfriend!

Wednesday

school was freakishly horrible! shan't talk about it at all!!!!
Moving on! my baby girl and i went to queensway! had mac for lunch first, awkwardly i didn't really enjoy the food as much as i thought would. cos i was having a craving for mac recently (: after lunch, we went to every shop on the first floor looking for 3 lanyards for my chuchu, her devil and kitmun! sadly we couldn't find a black one as she wanted a black one. So we got a similar to black, dark grey looking nike one. haha (: and we got kitmun a white one! Bad thing was that the lanyards didnt have those little clips with thing strings that you could attach to your phones. so we went over to vivo/harbourfront to hunt for it. and i was SO relieved that we could get them at uh, can't remember the shop's name. haha! after which we went to page one for a short while and went to the bus stop (: had loads of fun trying to show her how i've mastered the art of diaoing from her. SIMPLY because i HATE diaoing, cos its soooooo rude to do so. haha (: sadly, my little monster, ryan knows how to do it as well. if i'm not wrong he learnt it from his mummy. TSK! what a bad example. agree?? haha! (: anyway, chu chu went home and i went home too! (: had an absolutely fun time today out with her, and i was telling her how happy i was that our relationship had progressed this far (: WOOOHOOOO! I LOVE CHERYL CHU! :P

and uh, this piece is for jia hao if you pass by bro. remember ar, brothers for life. I'll be there for you whenever you need me bro. you get stuck, I'll pull you out of the stickiest pool of mud you've ever got yourself stuck in. you may not have other things anymore, but you still got me bro, you still have me (:

and my chu chu is still sick! so anyone who knows me do remember to wish her to get well soon! (: she's having flu and she's getting really moody at times, so i hope you get well as soon as possible baby! (:

Reviving this dead blog.

2008-03-23T19:26:00.004+08:00

HELLO!

it's been over a month since i last posted apparently. i saw the date of the previous post and i was like: "wow". haha. anyway, feels good to be typing rubbish again. good exercise for the fingers yeah. okay. had a little quarrel in the middle of the night. still not talking yet, but i hope 'll understand baby, understand what i'm trying to do and trying to change about myself. after all, relationships are about giving each other the patience of a million chances for each other to erase our worser flaws. I'm still missing you as much i would miss you any time we're not together okay? my heart's moved nowhere. still where it's supposed to be, in me, and me beside you (:

i love you baby (:

okay, apart from that, sister kimberly came back!!! ( not a nun ar, my actual sister okay) welcome back to singapore sista!!! though you didnt get me my vodka but it's still good to have ya back. no quarrels at home for the past two weeks meant silent halls in the house. haha (:

that's about it for this reviving post, rather short, but sweet (:

take care one and all. and welcome back to my blog! (:

at home, life's just not going right

2008-02-18T23:00:00.003+08:00

i vented,

i drank and burned my organs
i blasted my speakers and thumped my eardrums
i lifted weights and sored my muscles
i jumped jacks till everywhere hurt
i punched; kicked the wall, vibrating it, causing a low frequency boom
i punched myself in the mirror, imagining i was my enemy

i didn't get drunk
i didn't go deaf
i'm still mobile
i still walk
i'm brusied but what the hell
i'm angry with something

at the end of it all, nothing changes.
for i know tomorrow it will happen again
and the day after
and the day after
and the day after.
its the life i'm born into
a family of pieces
with lack of self-confidence
with lack of appreciation
with the want of everything more.

screw life.

life's a bitch, a huge, fat-ass bitch.

2008-02-13T00:39:00.000+08:00

here's a sadistic poem i just thought about since i was in such an emo mode just now. its short, but very strong, if you can relate to it that is.

Within these four walls,
a wet blanket dries one too many times.

yup thats it.

anyway, school was pretty simple today, but i had a fun time with cheryl at vivo! (: i managed to cheer her up! yay! (: and i did it within the first few minutes of us meeting up! (: so happy with my success today :D we patronized a few shops today and i got her a book from pageone, and i'm planning to get one soon as well i think. After which we went to tangs, cos she wanted to know so very badly what i wanted to get her for valentine's. SADLY, i didnt have enough money as apparently the Guess watch costed a hundred more! now i have to think of another present and i may already have something i'm thinking of already :D okay lar, i know i promised you a long post today baby, but i feel so lazy today! tomorrow okay? haha. you know ar, funny thing is, i felt a bit saddened by my life( read the title of this post) before i typed this paragraph about my dearest cheryl. But now that i've typed it, i feel so good! (: must be because of the happy time we had together just now! (: thank you dear! (whether you know it or not) for cheering me up as well! (: and i know you're not feeling so happy again right now, probably because of something, but i dont know what it is, but cheer up okay dear??? (:

haha, thats all for today folks, i'm off to cheer my girlfriend up! byebye! (:

bored. tired.

2008-02-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

feeling so tired right now, had a match against tanglin just now,we won by 4. Could have won by much more, but i guess most of us wasn't really in the mood for basketball as we still ar, or rather i am still in the holiday mood :D

had a wonderful time with cheryl! (: we went to watch ah long! (: a typical jack neo movie i would say (: but we enjoyed each other's company alot during the movie (: i managed to get the couple seats thanks to marvin! thank you so much for booking for me! (: just finished studying for maths, having test tomorrow, and i'm feeling as lethargic as ever (: hopefully tomorrow's school will be as smooth as today's (: hope you enjoyed my company today honey (: we'll go shopping for your friends' valentine's gifts tomorrow! (:

VOTE FOR SINGAPORE!!

2008-02-07T11:09:00.000+08:00

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GO TO MONOPOLYWORLDVOTE.COM NOW!!! FASTER VOTE AR!! THANK YOU!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHENG SIONG!!!

2008-02-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!! (especially my dearest girlfriend!!!! (: )
may the year ahead be prosperous in every aspect of your life! 2008!!! the year with 3 8's!!! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER!!! (CHENG SIONG)
I haven't got you a present yet but rest assured you'll get one on either monday or tuesday! haha! 16 already! can legally fool around already ar! hahahaha! okay lar bro, best of luck for your o's this year, and best of luck for everything else! your brother will always be there for you when you need me man! brothers for life!!! (: happy birthday!!!!

the last day of lessons for the week! HOORAY!!

2008-02-05T18:37:00.000+08:00

HOOOOOORAY!!!!
that's it for lesson's for this week for its cny celebrations tomorrow and the day after the is the actual thing! money collecting, family visiting, etc etc. i just got back from an afternoon at irvin's place followed by kaya roti and eggs at west mall with brothers: cheng siong, yi han, alan and of course brandon (: we had lots of fun playing with the pepper and brandon managed to squeeze a bit of it into cheng siong's nose! simply hilarious. (: school was pretty smooth sailing today, no hiccups and no really high things to talk about.

On to my relationship now, cheryl has had better days but i'm glad that just before dinner, which she is having right now, i managed to hear a change in tone. Which hopefully signifies the end of a really nasty day (: i know its difficult to really ignore her right now dear, but i believe you can do it! i'll be by your side every step of the way, just like your safety net! (: no matter how grumpy you can get i won't let it affect me. Why? because if you and i were both to be grumpy, who's gonna cheer who up? haha :P anyways, i'm so glad to hear your voice being slightly happier just now! (: and it better stay that way for the rest of the day ar .. haha! :P

okay lar, going off for dinner already. hope you guys like the new skin! (:

sick of school

2008-02-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

sick of school, schoolwork and school life.

haha! anyways, with that aside, congrats to baby's bestie who's from tanglin for going into second round (:

Met cheryl at river valley just now and she was super bored because she was getting impatient waiting for her bestie's match to finish. While doing so, she couldn't play her dearest nds because its battery went flat! haha! :P luckily i was there entertaining you right cheryl? :P anyway when they finished their match they had to wait for the lots of the second round to be drawn and this made my girlfriend even more impatient as she was dying to get home (: in the end, we finally got the letter and headed back home, and that was about it for today, nothing much actually. just really really sick of school that's all (: apologise for today's extremely short post (:

happy 6 months dear! (:

2008-02-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

For every one of the single day for the past 6 months, this is just a small gift from me to you. Thank you for giving me your love and care for every one of those days sweetheart. I'm so thankful for you and everything you've given me. You're the best darn girlfriend a guy can ever have. And i am one lucky guy (:

the clock is ticking!

2008-01-31T23:43:00.000+08:00

HARRROOOO EVERRRYYBARDDY!!!

the clock is ticking and time is inching closer and closer to a very very special day! (: my beautiful girlfriend is in dreamland right now because she's sooooo tired from all her matches today! (: congrats on getting overall champ dear! (:

anyways, i will type another post when the clock strikes 12, but for now i'll just blog breifly about the past few day's happenings (:

hmmm, wednesday wednesday wednesday.... hmmm, nothing much happened in school, and i met my dearest girlfriend at vivo after school! (: she was sick from flu and a bit of sore throat she had in the morning. We went home early cos i forced her to! haha! :P she was sick so i had to do what i had to do and send her home slightly earlier so she could have a short nap before dinner (:

As for today, I had a short leadership workshop after school which wasn't that spectacular but i enjoyed being with the people in my group (: Clarence found our "G" spots and that really got me high! haha! :P after the workshop, i went to toa payoh! to get the r4 cartridge changed for a working one! (: and now....... IT WORKSS!!!!!!! AFTER SO MANY FAILED ATTEMPTS IT FINALLY FREAKING WORKS!! MY HARD WORK PAYED OFF COMPLETELY!!! i know there were times while i was attempting so, my mood got really affected and i ruined my chu chu's mood as well. i'm so sorry dear, but look! i finally have it working already! i initially thought of not going, but i told myself i remember saying that i'd do anything for her, no matter how tired i was i was gonna get this stupid r4 cartridge changed (: and i did! (: after which i went to clark quay to meet mummy and we went to chinatown's OG to shop for her shoes for a bit and we came back home!

okay people, i have to call my love in a bit. and i'll post again later! with a photo of something special! or thingS rather. haha! (: byebye!! (:

I'd do anything for you

2008-01-29T23:20:00.000+08:00

hello everybody!! haha (: we had a wonderful match today against juying sec! and it'll be one of the most memorable ones yet! MVP goh jia hao led our team to victory in the last 5 seconds! five seconds which started with kok tiong passing from the side line, and jia hao letting it into net! i had my fair bit of fun as well, blocking and cornering no. 15 because i didn't really like his face and that he was pushing everyone. So i decided to take control :P Kok Tiong did a wonderful job shooting 3 pointers today and Quek qi!! well, lets just say he seemed like he was playing volleyball to me. haha! but anyway, well done with taking care of 196 bro! great job! (: the team played tremendously well today! we fought till the last 1.1 second! (because jia hao scored the foul in at 1.1 second (: ) well done guys, so proud of our achievement! lets try our best to thrash tanglin on the 11th alright?? (:

oh, and the score was bbss 42-40 jys MVP: Quek Qi and Jia Hao (:

moving on! (: not so happy news but i wanted to post this cause i thought i'd let my dearest know how i feel about the me be grumpy too often thing (:

i know i tend to have the capacity to get grumpy one too many times, and from the deepest wells of my heart dear, i truly am, sincerely sorry. Sorry for the fact that you have been trying so hard to keep it to yourself, and that you have gave me all your patience, which is more than i can ever ask for. I just want to let you know that attempting to download games into the r4 cartridge for you to play on the ds i'm giving to you is something i really want to do, specially for you and no one else. Its something i've been wanting to do not to prove to you i can supply you material things in our relationship, no, definately not proving anything to you. I just simply want you to have the best that i, as your boyfriend, can ever give you. you ARE my girlfriend and like it or not you're gonna be pampered till you're spoilt :P i'm gonna give my all for you, for us, for our relationship. Things will stand in our way but i'll be your diamond hard wall, your diamond horned bull, pushing through each and every difficulty we face. I hope you'll give me more time to adhere to your request. I will change for you or so help me god i am not the one worthy of you dear. Like i said, i want the best for you, the best i can give you. I will change for you, and be the best darn boyfriend for you there can ever be. You know what my heart wants to say to you right now, but i'm not gonna say it out :P Chu Cheryl, the best girlfriend in the world, the most possibly pampered, and one heck of a girlfriend i'm proud to have every single day of my life. baby, take my hand and pull me along to every battle you have to fight, i'll be there for you whenever, wherever. Nothing will stop me, only you can. Nothing can make my heart feel whole except you. Nothing, Nobody else, only you. You are my only one (:

Gushes through my veins, with time it clots
it is red.
full of fury; rage
not you, them i fight.
for you it flows
stop it will, the day will come

then,
souls entwined we rise
beyond the clouds and the oceans
together we still are,
knotted souls.

oops i did it again

2008-01-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

haha. hello people. i was staying over at my aunt's place yesterday and before i could post using the computer, i fell asleep. haha. anyway, friday was pretty simple. and thanks to the wonderful, brilliant minded ex sec 4's, we had only a half day of school. thank you guys. i taught a wonderful group of girls basketball during pe. haha. ruishan is totally a shooter man..haha. anyway, school ended and i had to help out with the sec 1 cca orientation exercise. and at first there were 14, now, there are 24. muahahahaha. i managed to pull an extra 10 cadets into ncc land. haha. achievement seh... haha.

soon after, i went home to bathe and change and again, i was out of the house and heading for dearest girlfriend's school. (: we met at the bustop and we went to vivo at bk for lunch. (: she made me eat lots and lots of fries and drink lots of coke. haha. (: stubborn little girlfriend of mine (: after lunch i sent her back to school for her training and i headed to daddy's office. studied how crude oil broking goes about for a while and daddy went to bangkok. enjoy your trip daddyo. (:

after that, went to nicky's place to hitch a ride to ngee ann poly for jie jie's performance which was totally awesome. well done jie jie and friends. that was some fine acting. (:

after the play we went to the market for some food and i ended up in ah chim's place. and fell asleep till 9am this morning. haha. sorry sorry i fell asleep dear. (:

the day didnt start out good when i met up with chu chu, but i'm happy that things got better soon after (: sorry i was so grumpy this morning dear. i'm trying my best not to be grumpy as often already okay? (: thank you for returning back to, not normal, but better than normal. (: so happy to spend today with you dear (:

soon we had to split and i followed mummy to her colleague's malay wedding which was cool during the ceremony and all (: the first malay wedding i have ever attended. after which we went to vivo to shop for some stuff. and i made mummy look totally young in some clothes. haha. and sorry mummy for buying such expensive shirts ( we both heard the price wrongly). and now i'm back and daddy's place posting. (: yay i managed to post 2 day's worth of events! my job is done. goodbye people! (: will be back tomorrow. byebye!

post today, tomorrow and the next day and the next day and so on so forth (:

2008-01-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

hello everybody! i shall start posting almost everyday from now on since baby dearest complains that my blog moves as fast a snail. haha! i've got lots of things to post about on the events that have been occuring the few days before but i'm kinda lazy to type so much so i'll just keep it simple alright? (:

Friday

ah it is on this day that i have once again obtained and embraced the priceless feeling of helping an old folk.
I was on the way back to school. just after meeting baby dearest, and i was at clementi station and i was on the lift down to street level when there was this old lady with a plywood cupboard about a metre tall who was on the lift as well. so when she got off the lift, she lifted the cupboard and started walking to wherever she was going. And of course she was having difficulty doing so. I was in a rush to get back to school for ncc training, but i thought i'd have one chance to help this old lady, so might as well do it now (: so i went over, told her i was willing to help her carry the cupboard, and when she insisted that she didnt need help, i just lifted the cupboard for her (i know how stubborn some old ladies can be) ! (: immediately, that priceless, wrinkled cheek to cheek smile just came out (: now thats what life's about (: walking, i asked her where she stayed. she said about 8 blocks from where we were and insisted that after we crossed the road she didn't need anymore help. ignorant i insisted that i carried it till i got to the lift of her lift (: she asked if i was in a rush and sorry auntie i had to lie to you so you wouldn't feel so bad, but i told her i was on the way home! haha! we walked and chatted for a while.

Just the two of us, 2 generations apart, yet the bond for human to human love could be felt, thats the untouchable, priceless feeling of helping a stranger. Then, you realize both of you aren't really strangers after all, for we all share a common bond. And that bond is, love. We all have love for one another, sadly material things and influences have made it unnoticeable. Love, its still there in between every one of us, covered by a layer of dust, waiting to be swept away (: anyway, back to the chatting. apparently the cupboard had came from her sister who was staying somewhere around clementi as well. haha. and i was asking her, why she didnt get someone else to carry it. And she told me her son was out at work. Well, we soon got to the void deck where she saw her neighbour, whom had mistaken me for her grandson! haha! well, we waved our goodbyes and that was the last i saw her priceless smile (:

Then, that wonderful, gut-twisting emotion came. Something i haven't felt in a couple of months now. i've always thought of helping people in a sense that, if someone needs help, we should go all out to help that particular person no matter what he or she has done before. We should give more second chances, for the people who try harder each time yet still fail. They shouldn't be neglected by society, instead society should help them. For you never know, the person you help might be someone who plays an important role in your life. Love one another, care for one another, for you never know, it may be the last chance you ever can.

and now, readers of my blog, i'm so freaking tired of typing, i wont post about the few days after last friday except for a simple post about today. my apologies for my laziness (:

TODAY

well today was a pretty straightforward day, no tests, thank god (: today's match was against bukit panjang. We played rather horribly. but i remember lifting someone off his feet because he was on top of me while i was trying to get the ball. I was on the ground while his legs were above my shoulder area, and when i stood up, he flew!!! haha! anyway, Come on guys we have to push ourselves for the full 40 alright? dont give up no matter how big the gap. i seriously believe we can do it (: add oil add oil ar. Jiahao dont give up okay? we can do it one. and thank you so much for your compliments today. you inspired me to play even better for the next 2 matches! i will ping all the way bro. all the way. hope you guys enjoyed the sugar cane, jiahao, hanyi, yihao and brandon. we shall have porridge again next tues eh? haha!

break camp, back home and feeling hollow.

2008-01-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

i would never do anything, to deliberately hurt you. so i beg you.

2008-01-19T17:41:00.000+08:00

Its the second day of bbss's 08 ug bonding camp and everything has been going better than what i expected. A few minor disciplinary problems arose but we managed to deal with it easily. Everyone's enjoying themselves, while i, well, i'm observing emotions. A human's happiness can be so easily triggered, its like starting a fire with a lighter. It's the most beautiful thing about life. How putting a smile on someone's face actually can put one on yours too. Its inevitable. Sadness is an emotion we try to but fail to avoid. Like happiness, it too is an emotion. And emotions are inevitable whether you like it or not. Sadness goes away easily at times, but when it becomes too serious, it becomes serious.

I didn't mean to make you irritated dear. Like the title of this post suggests, i would never do anything to hurt you deliberately. I would never let you fall and just stand and watch. i love you, and i'd bring you the best first aid box full of everything you need for the smallest wound you have. Moreover, i'd treat your wound with tender, loving care. It is my fault this time, i'm the one who unknowingly caused a traumatic, corrosive hurt. And whether you'd like me to say it or not, i know what i did wrong. I'm going to apologise to you dear, from the deepest wells of my heart i'm sorry, i'm really reallly sorry for what i've did. I was going through feelings of neglection and i started being moody. And in this, i started neglected you. i'm sincerely sorry for my silly mistake and i make this promise and swear to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth (: I WILL NOT BE GRUMPY UNLESS UNDER DIRE CIRCUMSTANCES and and, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hope you like my post dear! (: and that things will return to normal asap okay? i miss the creation of endless happy moments together! and a humongous thank you to all those people who've been supporting my dearest girlfriend these few days and cheering her up! thank you thank you thank you!!! i have to go attend a short meeting now! will update in a bit! i love you chu cheryl! hugs and kisses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DUSTY DUSTY!

2007-12-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

haha. here once again to clean up all the dust that has been collecting since the last post which is..i cant remember when! haha. anyway, i'm kinda lazy to post about the jap trip so i'll do it some other time when i am "free er". haha! its gonna be a hectic week for you this week. and for me somehow because i got lots of ispl to cover! haha. still lazy to do though, but like it or not i have to complete it.

I've set up a mini sound system in my room! a denon amp, sony dvd player, and a pair of mission speakers! looks totally rad!! now the only thing i'm short of is a record player! that'll add the cool factor to the room!! thank you uncle gregory for generously lending me your precious wires (:

moving on! our relationship seems to be deepening every time time passes. so as each second passes, i feel like the relationship grows. and it grows by the second, non-stop and round the clock! we've found out that we CAN get jealous! particularly me, since there have been a few occasions. BUT! i have made my chu chu jealous as well!!! because of a girl's forefeit where she had to whisper into my ear " i love you"! haha. met her during the jap trip. her name's joanne and she's 15 and from tanjong katong sec and her face turns tomato red with a tiny bit of alcohol! haha. whatever it is, i made my chu chu jealous! and as adorable as you find me cute when i'm sour with jealousy, i find you just as adorable honey :P

okay i shall return to my ispl for now, and maybe maple a while later? just afraid that the nagging queen does her job one too many times, haha. cheers all. enjoy your mob-tv cheryl! (:

leaving statement: i need to get you a DS lite in a few days time! :P

2007-12-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

BABY BOY! :P chuchu miss you, you know! haha! and i miss hearing ryan's voice, "jiejie cheryl, what are you doing" haha! :P hurry come back! you're at japan! and i'm going for camp tomorrow! haha! i'm going to miss you for sure! :P haha! and i won't be posting anything from today onwards! so i hope those letters would entertain you okay? ((: miss you and i ♥ you! ((: byebye!

I'll miss you baby

2007-12-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

This post is going out to one and only one person with the sole purpose of telling her how much she means to mean and how much I'll miss her too when i'm away.

Hi chu chu! (: Its 12.32 in the morning right now and we're on the phone! i was deeply touched by what you wrote on your blog and i thank you for that beautiful post dear (: Our four months just passed and i have to leave for japan! (i'm a big meanie, aren't i? haha) i'm so sorry i have to leave dear, you may say that its coincidence perhaps, that your busy week coincides with my holiday. But one way or another it just feels different knowing that i'm a few thousand kilometers away from you. and thats the reason why your tearing now and i'm trying my best to cheer you up! (: i want you to know love, that wherever you are, my body can't always be, but i bet you darn well my soul is. Each and every thought i have starts with, wonder what's cheryl doing now... haha! thats love alright, and we are, deeply in love with each other. a week apart may be what seems to be a test of our strength independently. How we struggle to survive amidst the world around without our precious ones by our sides. But also, it's also, honestly, a brilliant way to realise and acknowledge the fact that we have, hand in hand, come upon this stage of our relationship. We miss each other terribly, yes that we most definately do. However the real maturing of our relationship exists when we, try everything in our power to have a sort of contact with our loved one, yet at the same time, try to hold ourselves back from making each other paying too high a phone bill. haha (: Love is indeed priceless my love, but we can't be inmature thinking and end up causing our bills to explode. Thats why we learn to understand each other's situation better, learning to sacrifice our wants for our needs. Sacrificing what we want for someone is most definately love. It may not be for the person you wish to spend your entire life with, but in this case it is however. And I, yap ying loong kenneth wants to spend the rest of my unpredictable life with you, cheryl chu.

We shall stand strong together through this single wave of test of our relationship, for it strengthens us for the many more to come. Together forever, forever together love (:

Distance is only a measure,
and so is time.

For the past four months,
I didn't count day by day,
second by second I was with you.
I simply couldn't

I was drowning ; couldn't even breathe.
In a sea of love I could tread no more.
I became part of each wave.
And each time i surfaced to breathe.
You would fill the air.

All i had to do was take you in,
filling my lungs with an endless supply of love.
I am alive again.

Alive with you,
flowing through my veins,
in my bottomless well of thought.
And over every strand of hair of my body.

Reviving me once more.
Thank you,
for letting me love and be truly, loved.
I love you Cheryl Chu

every word of this poem has been sought from the bottom of my heart. there's no doubt i'm drowning in your love babe (:

be strong, i will be for you (:

2007-12-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 4 MONTHS! ((:
chuchu loves you!!

2007-11-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

HELLO baby killer whale! haha! ((:
i'm plain bored! so i just pop by! haha! ((:
see you tomorrow! ((: byebye!

sunday morning rain isn't falling (:

2007-11-11T10:10:00.000+08:00

good morning all (:

woke up at 630. i felt a pair of heavy sticks on my ass when i realised it was hans' legs. apparently he was shifting himself throughout the night (: i shifted them and suddenly heard inconsolable playing. thought it was her calling but actually it was meghan's alarm. went to the blacony and got some fresh air and proceeded on downstairs to prepare breakfast for the rascals (: breakfast was egg and sausages where i once again, had to make sandwiches for them (: have to admit this babysitting thing ain't easy at all. haha (: let alone parenting! (: we played with the netball for a while while i was skating along at the same time. unc nick and gugu soon arrived to pick meghan and hans up for tuiton. i went for blading some more and now i'm back in my room posting again (: hilda's on my right mapling. (she leveled my noob char) and hazel's right behind her harassing her (:

enjoy your sunday people. (:
post again soon (:

posting again! and hopefully after (:

2007-11-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

POSTING AGAIN!!!

this long weekend has so far been one of the best days in my entire sec 3 life (: a bunch of kids, some maple, and of course a lovely girlfriend (: it started on wednesday when hell broke loose cos mdm yeo thought i ran from her class. it was tense as it was hilarious. she called up the folks and dad got furious at me over the phone. thankfully irvin and alan helped me calm me down from my tenseness? haha. and i proceeded to do my math homework, of course, during chinese period! haha (: and i added the question which i was unable to answer which got me out of class (: i handed it up her and explained the misunderstanding (: and just before i met cheryl i called daddy and explained everything (: thankfully he understood and everything was back to normal (: when we got to jurong east i called mummy and explained, she nagged a little but at least things got back to normal too (: we then proceeded to my place where we mapled for a bit, and i made a milo dinosaur which sadly, wasn't sweet enough for my sweet cheryl! I'll try again next time (: the quest for the perfect milo dino shall continue! haha. got to spc (petrol station) at our place where we split routes and i went to cold storage to get food for the little rascals!

soon they arrived and i was babysitter for the day. haha! had 3 kids to look after. the insanely happy meghan, the adorable hilda and the noisemaker, hans! we then proceeded to a fun time with lots of noise. and i mean A LOT! haha. i decided to do a nice thing at about 12mn and made them sausage bacon sandwiches. and that was that for the day.

on thursday morning, i brought the princesses with me to mac at west coast cos i'd thought they'd like that (: which they did! i taught them, for the first time in their lives, how to use a knife and a fork simultaneously! haha. we had a great time and daddy sent us back home to the ''palace''. haha. hans was stuck to a video game as usual. and because i was so bored, i told dad i wanted to wash the car but instead got assigned to buddha house. i turned it from white to grey! and during that process, got a sunburn..haha (: the two princesses and i then proceeded to wash the beemer and we turned it sparkly white! (: i have to say though, cleaning the buddha house was relieving somehow. and i began, for some reason appreciating the rascals and family and treated them even nicer. haha (hilda's beside me now, and she agrees (: ) nothing much happened for the rest of the day though except the rascals going home cos they had school.. so thats about it for thursday (: oh, and i chionged two level's today. (with thanks to hans for that 50% (: )

now, friday morning. i sent cheryl to school and then went to the market near home where i met up with grandma. thankfully i did cos she bought lots of heavy stuff. we went to jurong east where we got some other stuff and then proceeded home. immediately after that i went out to meet her again cos she was free for a bit after dance. i brought along a cooling drink i got for daddy from the market so i could pass it to him afterwards. we walked around vivo for a bit and went to tiong bahru plaza to get kim's popcorn chicken where to queue was moving like sloths. We got on a taxi back to her school for her chem lesson and i went to dad's office. there, aunt sharon (jiejie sharon rather cos she's so young (: ) told me i looked like a korean superstar. hahaha. not the first time i've been told so. wenxin feels that i look like rain, and hilda just told me that her sister's friend said i look like a korean superstar. haha. flattering it is but sadly and proudly i'm a singaporean (: caught up with people in dad's office and i left at about 330 to cheryl's school again to send her home (: that's all for friday and now for today..

TODAY!

i woke up at 1210pm and saw all the rascals at dad's place already! haha. aunts and uncles were here too, and i enjoyed the atmosphere (: me, together with hilda and sister, hazel washed a car again! this time, HOWEVER, we washed more than a car. we washed me as well!!! or rather THEY did. and because of the water hose in hand, i made drenched as well. i was not going down alone. i was covered in foam though, thanks to hazel's ''high''ness. haha. the car was sparkling after and i was proud of our achievement (: i then bladed with susu's blades for a long long long time, about 4 hours? and now i'm back in my room posting. with hans a million ( and i mean a million) by my right side mapling, and hilda on my left. with meghan bouncing the netball the wrong way, and hazel looking over hans' shoulder and at what i'm posting. and after all the rubbish that i've typed, its time to publish it now so that the nagging princess can get her hands on my laptop. thank you, and good night.

sorry for the long long post! (:

get well soon dad!

and cheer up cheryl! (: (although you already are)

love you rascals and family and of course cheryl! (: byebye (:

hans says: so long suckers (:

2007-11-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

hello!!!
this blog seems pretty dead, and since i'm SUPER FREE, i shall update! not about his daily life but all about BABY BLUE WHALE crappyness! ((:

HAPPY 3 MONTHS! ((:

busy busy man

2007-10-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

my sincerest apologies for such delay in my personal posts!

been pretty busy lately. busy with work, family, proposals, basketball etc. BUT nevertheless, i'd still spare time for my dearest cheryl despite the time constraints. Its a commitment after all, and not a burden. And i thank GOD everyday for this angel by my side (:

Nothing much happened over the 3 day weekend so i'd just state basically how it went by (:

Friday:

Promotion day! therefore all bbssians had no school (: however, i was still glued to the computer due to the extremely irritating proposal that was supposedly due at 12 noon that day. Without a doubt, we did NOT complete it at 12 but rather about 1230-1. And because of this i wasn't able to fetch dear cheryl from school. sorry! (: got done with the proposal and left the house immediately after. Coincidentally i hitched a ride on the porsche and rushed to buona vista mrt station where she was awaiting my arrival (: so sorry for the delay ar! (: we headed down to jurong east and boarded 143 to toh payoh! enjoyed the bus trip alot as always (: we didn't stay at toh payoh for long and boarded the exact same 143 back to jambol place (: we split routes and i went to cold storage but came out empty handed. Back home i was glued to the computer and the atmospheric boredom. Thats about it for friday (:

Saturday:

Hmmmm..can't really recall what happened in the morning actually..i reckon i slept till slightly past noon. haha (: nothing much happened in the afternoon till early evening. Dad was hooked onto GE and i couldn't request an outing (: we headed to the Korean barbecue restaurant nearby for dinner where i felt like i fit in. why? cos i look korean/japanese! haha (: but i'd be more on the korean side. i stepped into the restaurant and everyone i walked pass was taking a glance at me. haha (: we had beef! lots and lots of beef! daddy said he wanted to eat beef so we had about 4-5 dishes of beef including 3 beef ribs! haha (: whaddaya gotta say..big men big appetite! haha (: i got bored and stepped over to the ball room in search of the BFG ryan (: (BFG stands big friendly giant) had lots of fun with him there. He even tried to make friends with this korean girl who refused to acknowledged him. So he seeked big brother me for help, asking me: kor kor, what's her name? korkor replies: i have absolutely no idea little dude. (: i buried him with the balls and he seemed to enjoy it so i got him to 'pose' for me and this is how he looked:

adorable isn't he? that little rugrat (: after dinner we headed home where i got glued to deleted scenes why cheryl got glued to RCT2 (: and that was pretty much it for saturday (:

Sunday:

I had a pretty boring sunday so there's nothing to post about it (:

Monday:

The usual monday blues.. we did a maths further coordinate geometry today, and mdm yeo gave a killer question for homework which i still have trouble solving. so did leyu! haha (: lit was very boring today so the 4 musketeers embarked on a math homework. chinese after recess was boring as well so wy-lin began cam-whoring. so did jack! haha.

foreground: wy-lin background: me and jack's hair (:
Elliot and Irvin acting cute (: by: wy-lin
the head prefect of BBSS: jack (:

2007-10-19T00:37:00.001+08:00

hello! baby blue whale here again! because SOMEBODY say he really wish to update his blog, but he don't have the time too! haha! so since i'm so FREE i shall update! haha! ((:

so yeah! he went to sch, while i was in DREAMLAND! haha! so yup! haha! after school he had ug meeting i guess? haha! after that, he went for training! haha!

after training he went home and took a "short" nap! he was awoken up by me at 8.45! haha! nice right? :P and he watch tv! haha! and now he's doing his PROPOSAL! haha! have fun!

byebye! ((:

2007-10-17T20:11:00.001+08:00

HELLO baby killer whale! haha!
you're in DREAMLAND now! haha! while i'm chatting on the phone! haha! :P i'm so so so bored! ((: i shall not post anymore! haha! byebye! ((:

who do I look like?

2007-10-17T02:13:00.000+08:00

2007-10-15T19:37:00.000+08:00

hello! ((: haha! cheryl here!
hmm.. since i'm super bored i shall post here before going to mug! haha! my baby killer whale was nice enough to stay all the way up till 5 yesterday as i was away on a prawn fishing trip! haha! thats trip there certainly wasn't that fun! haha! my brothers are EVIL! haha! they don't dare to remove the prawn from the bait! neither do i. haha! but i was made to remove )): poor me. haha. i will never want to go again if my brother were to ask me to go! because its plain freaky! ((:

haha! thats the cause of why he wanna stay up late, it was to entertain me! haha! thank you! ((: he woke up at 1+ today! haha! then took a car ride home. had lunch, then entertain me for awhile and soon tuition, while i went to study! haha! ((: after which he went to set up his ps2, then chat with chuchu! haha! ((:

soon, he had dinner, and now, i think he's in DREAMLAND! haha! ((: cute right! :P haha! night night my baby killer whale! ((: i shall go study now! ((: bye!

its sunday morning!

2007-10-14T12:14:00.000+08:00

just got back from breakfast! and my baby blue whale is still fast asleep in dreamland (: had beef noodles for breakfast and sadly i didn't tell the uncle i wanted a soup one..so he gave it to me seperately, and when i got back to the table ryan took my soup away and that was the end of that (:

beef noodles tasted okay..nothing special actually (: i originally wanted to order prawn noodles but the queue seemed to me like it stretched the entire great wall so i trashed that idea. haha (:

on the way home we saw a yellow 360! it got sandwiched betweened a taxi and car so it got pissed and hammered its way through traffic (: got to hear it roaring! i sure do miss the ride in the baby lambo.. its been what? 3 years? yeah.. 3 years since i last got to ride a supercar (: and i still remember that four years ago it was because of ryan's one month celebration! so i have thank him for that. definately (: right now he's beside me imitating the sound of an accelerating engine (: maybe he'll become as obsessed with cars as me one day? haha (: you never know (: thats all for now! will post again later when i feel like it (:

take care all! have a wonderrful sunday (:
missing ya cheryl (:

the first post

2007-10-14T03:49:00.000+08:00

yes! i did it people! haha (: i managed to set up this blog skin by myself! haha (: its the wee hours of the morning and yes i'm spending it with her on the phone (: she's still reluctant to sleep! haha (: but i'm sure the boredom will send her to dreamland pretty soon (:

thats about it for the first post! sorry so lazy to type!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA EVERYONE!! (: